thatGIRL

when people are bored or got nothing better to do, they'll start doing random stuff. especially rubbish-ing. AHAHA...

Name someone who always makes you smile?
- my lovely JUDEs & DUDEs

What were you doing at 7:00 this morning?
- sleeping

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
- answering a call

Are you gay?
- yes very.

What colour is your hair now?
- black with a lil bit of brown ^.^

What was the weather like today?
- fine

Where did your last hug take place that wasn't your mum?
- coffee shop :P

What are you excited for?
- for .. *grins*

Something you miss terribly?
- hmmmm. not sure.

Closest thing to you thats green?
- my HP keychain.

Last person you spoke to?
- mummy

Are you very random?
- you can say so.

Do you want to get your hair cut?
- for now,NO!

Are you over the age of 25?
- damn i am only 17.

Do you talk a lot?
- you think?

Do you watch The O.C.?
- nope

Does your screen name have the letter "M" in?
- ?

Do you know anyone named Doreen?
- yup.

Do you make up your own words?
- sometimes.

Are you ticklish?
- yes & no?

Are you a jealous person?
- to a certain extend, yes.

Who are you jealous with?
- my CATS! coz dey don't need to study. ^.^"

Do you chew on your straws?
- yes, when i got nothing better to do.

Do you have curly hair?
- obviously.

What is the next concert you're going to?
- concert? NO but watching competition YES.

Where did you go today?
- market, home.

Who was the last person to say they loved you?
- i dont know :(

What should you be doing right now?
- mind my own business?

Are you a heavy sleeper?
- yes??

What are you listening to?
- music.

What's the best movie you've seen in the past two weeks?
- none

Is there anyone you like right now?
- myself :P

When was the last time you did the dishes?
- few hours ago

Did you cry today?
- nope. =)

Sunday, June 29, 2008

ok, don't get shock....
yes i've change my blogskin. actually not really. it's still the same skin BUT the only diff is the colour and the picks. well, i was very bored cause got nothing to do. so i decided to change my blogskin. browse browse nothing attracts me untill this pics came in. don't really like the skin so i decided to take just the pics. so i edit here and there and poof! finally its done.

ok the reason why its kinda dark in colour coz im kinda hmm...dunnoe ley. i just feel like having dark bloggie. not emo kay! its just that i love black. for no reason. i just find it nice. ahaha...

sometimes when people emo they listen to emo song. but im not. my way of being emo is simple...
1) lock myself in my room
2) turn off the light and light a candle. a big candle!
3) switch on radio
4) blast out the volume as loud as i can
5) dance or do something crazy
lol, well mostly i just dance whenever i feel like or just lie on my bed listening to watever songs that's being played. =D

that's all folks!

all i could say is this....
BEING THE YOUNGEST CAN BE A BURDEN!

i feel like jumping out of the window everytime i kena become the victim of listening to lectures that has got nothing to do with me. WTH! staying at home can drive me NUTS! when your sibling is out and came home late, your mother will be worried cum angry. den she'll start to nag nag nag infront of you. saying this and that to you but actually you're not in the wrong. cannot find who to nag, they nag at you. why? cause you're the youngest and normally the youngest would sometime stay at home cause got no plans. then the mother will start to nag nag nag hoping that the youngest will not follow like their elder siblings. so what if they wanna nag? its as if they'll listen. well some do but some don't. like me larh...the moment mummy want to nag, i straight away went into my room or worse, show face. being the youngest have its advantages and disadvantages. gosh...all i could do now is to mind my own business.

Saturday, June 28, 2008

what else could i say. i spent the whole day at home like a fool! going in and out of my room to the living room to the kitchen. man wat a day! -.-" rot rot rot. WTH! want go out dunnoe who to ask. scared if ask ltr they say they not free. and the best thing to sasy is this, "I bankrupt liao". so? going out doesnt mean you need money. ouh well, i dont wanna waste my time talking bout this. i blog for the sake of blogging? lol. have to keep it alive anyway.

for a moment i had a flashback bout my life in sec 1 and that very moment i remembered bout that very someone. someone who i look upon as a caring and understanding person. someone who i thought i can share joy and happiness as a friend with. but what could have happen that we end up as so called enemy? i dunnoe whats the reason but i think we both are partly to be blame. am i being unfair to her? or is she being unfair to me? sigh... it's all because of that very day. the day where i was left alone thanks to her! sigh... seriously, sometimes i wish that i shouldn't have broke up with her (as a friend). it kinda breaks my heart the moment we got separated. she once said that its not easy to find a friend like me but she got it slipped away. everytime we ran into each other, it feels like there's a war between us. =( eversince we stop talking to each other, things didnt really go well for her. weird but when we were still friends, everything looks fine especially her studies. but what could have happen when she suddenly change? i was expecting her to move on as i have move on. years pass and im in a new school with new friends. news from my friend few weeks ago that she's no longer schooling. well she retained twice and was suppose to take her N'lvl this year. =( every now and then i wish that i could just turn back time but i know i cant. life have to move on, we cant keep broading over it.

well, i don't think she read my blog but who knows maybe her friends who know me could have read this. well, maybe you can help me pass this msg to her....
i know its too late to say this...

years have pass and we both have move on. you're with your life and im with mine now. all that had happened is already a history to me. there's time that i regret breaking up with you and misses you. but i know we'll never be back as friends. coz we have treated each other back to strangers. sometimes when we ran into each other, i really want to say hi to you but i couldnt bring myself. i could only say hi in my heart. ouh well, whats done cannot be undone. i really hope that you'll lead a good life and found someone better than me. you'll always be my friend eventhough there's still some hatred in me to you =( and i really hope that we could at least smile to each other whenever we ran into each other.
yours truly, Shikin.

FYI,tears roll down my cheeks...=(

Friday, June 27, 2008

ouh goody goody whoo! YESHA! finally my mids is OVER! wuhoo! *DANCING* ahaha! no more papers and that means a HURRAY TO ANOTHER ONE WHOLE WEEK OF HOLIDAY! YESH!!! ^.^ okok, back back, Shikin is too excited alr. its just Mid Kinkin. Promos yet to face...so my next challenge is the PROMOS EXAMS! eeyer....

aniway today was the last paper of Mid. and that would be ACCOUNTS! the hatest subj that i had since sec sch...have to face it again. aiyo -.-" so, i've got few comments to make. firstly, the teacher didnt really teach us finish coz there's one part that i believe its the one on CORRECTION OF ERRORS or watever SHIAT that got to do with errors and ommission. didnt really go through in class den came out in exams? KNS! like that how to do? siao arh! even me, the dumbo who got accounts background also cant do. why? simple, I FORGOT EVERY THEORY FOR ACCOUNTS ALREADY!!!! kk, not every, only certain part larh eh....>.< so i just do watever i can and poof! times up! and thats the end of my Mid!

back home, had lunch den relax awhile. den BAKING TIME! yes, i had my very own baking without mummy's help. SHIKIN FINALLY BAKE HER VERY OWN CAKE! ^.^ well, i did bake alot but it was with mummy's help. so i took my own sweet time mixing the ingredient, put the colours and finally to the cake's tray. hmm, maybe i name it RAINBOW KIN CAKE! lol AHAHAHA >.<
okok, here are some of the pics that i manage to take...

my very own creation. this is before baking...

the cake in oven. so nice!

finally the cake! yeah, once it cools down, it kinda sink. lol

the patterns that i've created. nice rite? hee...

ouh yeah, took this and guess what. the pattern looks like an ALIEN FACE?! AHAHA!

so people...if you ever wanna try something, just go for it. dont delay. you'll never know what you can do till you try. for my case, its baking and cooking. coz i love playing around with food. ahaha. maybe i'll become a chef in the next 10 years? lol....even if i do, i'll make sure that i have my own restaurant! ahaha....

no more to blog alr larh. till next time people... =)

plz, i just hope that it wasnt me as that Shikin who love her! coz i hardly know her and how can she put me love her? yucks! so childish larh. plz plz plz tell me that she wasnt referring to me...
people, i only love MY FRIENDS THAT IM CLOSE WITH OR HAVE KNOWN FOR LONG! not just anybody. geesh!

Thursday, June 26, 2008

ever giving a thought of how nonsense you can be? sometimes cracking nonsense is the best way to cheer you and your friends up. well, that's what i always did to my lovely friends. no matter at MSN, in school or out, just crap as much as you can and your day will be save! really...

so, yesterday i had my most challenging subject that i used to get grade As, MATHEMATICS! OMG! i cant believe i cant finish the paper. geesh... by right i should be able to do all but its just a matter of TIME! you know TIME! doing math for 1.5hrs is just not enough for 7 bloody qns! 7 qns is equivalent to like 10 qns? walauley...theres always like part a) den part b) and and a one whole chunk of qns that makes you do lotsa lotsa on working in one paper! KNS! even in secondary sch give you 2 hrs to do larh! bloody *toot*! ok so i kinda quickly do every single qns as fast as i can. and i end up skipping a few qns coz i lazy to think -_-" how i wish i could take H1 math. den it would be like a bonus to me coz H1 math is like O'lvl A.Math. but the problem is that i have to take econs if i were to take H1 Math. i hate econs. its so dry and i will surely fall asleep in class i tell you. ahaha!

ayway, im suppose to be studying rite now but im stuck here. lol. after 2mr's paper and im done! YESHA!

this is what i crap with my Mr Mussy ystd:

Mus: Kinne, wheres your book?
Kinne: erh, all over my room...
Mus: your bag?
Kinne: dunnoe, somewhere...
Mus: eh, den wheres your body?
Kinne: floating ard.
Mus: ouh, no wonder you're so high.
Kinne: yours?
Mus: wondering somewhere in S'pore.
Kinne: at where? sentosa? with the Merlion arh?
Mus: maybe... mye heart is out wsearching for someone.
Mus: wheres your leg?
Kinne: i left it at the stadium. urs?
Mus: dancing at home.
Kinne: ouh...eh. wheres our brain arh?
Mus: outside, taking some fresh air. how bout your fingers?
Kinne: running ard the keyboard. ^_^

well, its not exactly what we said here. im just recalling luh. so yeah. crapping is fun especially when you don't have anything to say. AHAHAHAHA!!!!

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

seriously im not suppose to blog. ahah. cant help it since im bored now. ok. so yesterday was geog and i say....OMG!!! really, i mean wat i expect to come out didnt really came out. but at least the one that i've learnt came out. so it's so called OMG! still.....ahaha

den today, MT and MOB (management of biz). was like so the fricking stress! sitting for like 3 fricking hours for that bloody MT paper and 2hrs for MOB. geesh... but MT can pass larh. most probably a E or D? hehe...the grades are diff den in sec sch ok? E is considered pass not FAIL. ahaha.....den MOB? dont say larh. throw more bomb larh!

ok, so rite now got no mood to study for 2mrs paper which is MATH! omg...cant guarantee i can get A luh. so yeah.....haha

PS: 2 more papers and OFF TO ONE WEEK HOLIDAY AGAIN! yesha!

Sunday, June 22, 2008

ok, by right i shouldn't be blogging but what to do im addicted to blogging. ahaha. 2day raining like hell i mean rain heavily early in the morning. suppose to wake up at 8am but end up woke up ard 8.30am. bathe bla bla bla den help mummy out wif breakfast. ard 9.40am, time for me to get OUT of the house. heh, went to study wif Sera at CPCC. and again Ms Kinkin is PUNCTUAL!!! Sera was suppose to meet me at the bustop near JPS back gate at 10am. i wait and wait and wait but no sign of her. KINKIN HAS MADE A GOOD DEED TODAY. KINKIN HELP A BLIND MAN BOARD A BUS! heh. SOOO HAPPIE! saw him walking towards the bustop so i guess he wants to take a bus larh. when he reach i asked him "Can I help you sir?" and of course he replied which bus he wants to take larh. after helping him, still no sign of Sera. i gave up and decided to try my luck to call her home. guess what, she still asleep when i called! so i had my hair chopped first while waiting for her den headed down to CPCC.

at first we studied at Mac but den more and more people came. so we changed place at the study corner of CPCC which we didn't know it exist outside the open space. well, actually it suppose to be n a room but now change alr. so there we mug mug mug and mug like a nerd for about 3 hrs plus? den im too tired and had a super short nap while Sera continued stuudying. ouh, at the same time there's a wedding held there and the moment you step in or walk pass the multi-purpose hall, you could smell the aroma of BRIYANI! gosh...its so tempting larh.... =P

when we couldnt study anymore, we left the place. headed down to coffeeshop to get something for mummy. we took a nice long or short walk before we separate ourself again. feel so sad to be apart again after like 4 years not being schmates anymore. well, Sera is a true primary schmates i ever had. ahah. thanks for being my fren girl! ^_^

ok, maybe i shall stop here 1st. 2mrs sitting for Geog. hope i can do well. KINKIN JIAYOU!!!

Saturday, June 21, 2008

soon, i'll be run down by an INVINSIBLE VEHICLE! BULLSHIAT!!!

seriously, i spent the whole day in at home doing either housework or my own business. hah -.-" ouhhk, was awaken by this super duper irritating "human" early in the morning. MY DEAF DADDY! early in the morning alr switch on the TV volume loud loud. PEKAK KE APE SIOL! grr...want sleep longer cannot. i gave up and woke up to bath. den kena instructed by mummy to do the usual stuff. COOK! aiyo...i might as well spend my lifetime cooking den studying lar dey! quickly ate my breakfasat den start to "work" @_@

after that clean up my room. took out all the sec sch stuff, books & worksheet & files & more worksheets. didnt noe i had so much "paper work" in sec sch.... so i took out every single pieces bits of dusty papers and threw them to one side. clear them up and im done! but i haven vanish them yet. well, actually i had a hard time vanishing them. every single piece of papers brings memory of my hard work in sec sch. how sad it is to throw them away now. wanna keep oso no point. wont be using it anyway. it'll turn super dusty like some kind of hidden treasure in the library by the time i found them again. ^.^" so after all the throwing here and there and packing up. got no rest.

Mummy's Aunt & Uncle cum my Grandparents, not the real one, came to pay a visit. den my real Grandma(Daddy's mom) and Aunt & Uncle came. no choice but to entertain them. seeing mom and dad entertaining the guest, i quitely went into my room to do some revision. but i got NO PEACE! "Shikin!!! bla bla bla here...." & "Kin!!! bla bla bla there..." gosh! cant even have a single peaceful time to study larh. bloody hall!!!!!!! i gave up and straight away stand at the living room like a statue. tsk!

and now, finally...had my own time! and i realise that im busy with lotsa stuff the whole day! aniway, when i was clearing up the mess and stuff, found my CME file. was flipping through it and found a poem given by Mr Chan. my very own form teacher. too bad he no longer teaching in NBSS. =(

If i knew it would be the last time
That i'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If i knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If i knew it would be the last time
i'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so i could play them back day after day.

If i knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I lonve you,"
intead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

I i knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get second chance
to make everything just right.

There will always be another day
to say " I love you,"
and certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anithing I can do?"

But just in case i might be wrong,
and today is all i get,
I'd Like to say how much I love you
and i hope we never foeget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
and today may be the last chance
you get hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear.

Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.

till then, have a wonderful day ahead. ^.^

Friday, June 20, 2008

how would it be if you could just spend you time creating new stuff with FOOD and not studying?

aniway, didn't go out 2dae. well actually suppose to go chop my hair but woke up late den lazy to go alr. ahah. so, as usual had my late breakfast which is also like my lunch but didnt eat much. den went online to help mummy search for recipe. ouhhhhh.....and we cook it on the spot! ^_^ wow it taste soooooooooo LAZAT! ahah. kk, cook erh NASI SABARINA and AYAM MAHARANI. but den the mummy didn't follow the ingredients exactly so she edit the name. "AYAM SARIKIN" well its a mixture of her name and my name. coool o_^ den i cook an additional dish. dunnoe wats the name but i just create it. its a mixture of prawn and kang-kong. its very nice actually...haha. i love my cooking! ^.^ maybe i should call it "PRAWN WITH KANG-KONG IN OYSTER SAUCE" lol.....ouh yeah, i actually scalded my left thumb while cooking one of the dishes. i was like whoah...at 1st it feels so hot den it gets painful and painful. naughty me, i didnt put anithing to prevent it from getting worse. so now it's very painful. SHIaT!

ouhk, first of all...CONGRATULATION TO ALL THE NEW EXCOs OF MISB. *clap clap clap clap clap* =D so proud of you people. well, actually it goes by voting but somehow i feel that there's no diff larh. its almost the same like what the teachers had chosen at 1st. but maybe people want what they prefer. aiyo...and im in the EXCO! im an EVIL LOAN SHARK! and Minmin is my asst. sooo thats why its EVIL LOAN SHARK!!! MUAHAHAHA! heh, actually im the TREASURER!!!! gosh, i got the same post again. at first i got this post voted by the teachers den den they wanted to have another round of voting. sooo i end up the same post again. haiyo. aniway, now that i got the post, im gonna do my best as a leader. eventhough im just a treasurer still it's a heavy task OK?! heh, gonna go round chasing people for money!!! yesha! watch out MISB, EVIL LOAN SHARK is coming!!!!

Yes, I Can!
I am only one,
but still I am one.
I cannot do everything
but still I can do something.
I will not refuse to do
the something I can do.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

randomly click and end up THIS?! who the hell is behind me? look like a ghost? NAHH... it's someone else who sat there to mind her own business lol....ahaha >.<

had a great great great nice nice fun time spending with my malay clique plus Eunice. its been for like dunnoe how long since we last met each other. HAH! i miss them loads. same people never change. all the jokes and tricks that i miss finally came back! ^_^ aniwae, suppose to meet the girls at Yishun MRT ard 1pm but some of them were late. as usual im the punctual one. AHAH! see...KINKIN IS ON TIME! moving on.... went to meet Nad and Jurong East followed by Eunice. but end up meeting Eunice at Lakeside. well, Fiqah went to find Eunice while the rest of us wait ard the last cabin area there. den suddenly, Fiqah called CT and ask us to quickly get into the train but apparently we're too late. the door of the train closed and left behind. we were so KANCHIONG! to get to the train and we almost left Fiqah's bag behind. OOPS! seeing the weather made us change our mind. we end up going to Vivo rooftop. -.-"

there we had a mini picnic. Fiqah being so kind packed fried rice for each and everyone of us and even bake cake specially for us! sadly, she forgot to bring spoon for us and so we have to use the traditional way by either eat with our hand or eat like you eat a BANDITO POCKET. well, the rice is like sushi rice. all sticks 2gether. IT'S NICE OK! ouh, and i brought a sandwich. haha ^.^

after we ate, its time for GETTING WET! haha! went to play with the water there and of course, CAMWHORE! yeah, we click here and click there and more click click click click click!!! it's so fun larh. played ard with each other and more clicks! it's been a long time since i had fun with my sec sch frens. miss them so much. went back to Yishun by bus. gosh! it's a long journey alright. felt abit dizzy so i end up closing my eyes from time to time and my pantat is PANAS larh. legs too long and cant put my head properly at the handle. tsk! den end up sit straight and sometime stretch my legs till i reach Eunice legs infornt of me. -_-" back to Yishun, we went to Popular coz i need to buy some accessories. bought alot of sch stuff as if it's my very very first day in sch on monday ltr. ahaha. =P walk ard PASAR MALAM den headed home. bathe, eat abit, watch TV and den here i am. sitting infront on the comp blogging with my eyes half dead. haha, no larh. slept late these few days. dunnoe why. maybe too much thinking in my preacious brain?! @_@ okok, theres pics to 2daes outing but im lazy to upload it now. maybe next time i upload it larh. hehe.

receive this from CY.
Please pass this message: Weibin friend's father had leukemia urgently need platelets of AB+ group. Calling for AB+ blood group people, found 3pax, but need 15 pax. Contact Caili: 97838531. I dont know who is weibin , but pls help to pass down the message . thanks (:

erh, too bad i dunnoe whats my blood type. lol.
till then, byebye! =D

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

THE BAKERS!

well hello! ytsd was very very fun! woke up ard 11 plus? oops! :P met Kimi at the usual place at 12 noon. again our Mr Mussy is late so while waiting for him we go buy some stuff at "Shop & Save". after that headed to Mac to wait for Heikel and also to buy lunch. Kimi bought the GREEN TEA MCFLURRY and it was like eeew. it taste exactly the same like vanilla ice-cream. seriously, i rather spend my money on other ice-cream than that. waste of money oni. ok, so went back to Kimi's house to eat lunch and of course BAKE CAKE! ^_^

in the process of making the cake....
we actually took turn to hold the cake mixer machine. well, Kimi don't have the cake mixer so i brought mine from home larh. KIMI YOU BETTER GO GET YOURSELF ONE! or else i wont bring mine again and we'll gonna mix it manually for 2HRS! *_*
so, we mix and mix and mix till its done. too bad we forgot to take pics during the process. =(
after the whole process, Kimi made yoghurt drink for us. THANK YOU! =D it's very nice. all you have to do is to mix, yoghurt with sugar and water. mix well and you'll have a super duper nice nice yoghurt drink! hmmm...YUMMY! ok, while waiting for the cake to bake, we camwhored. using each other's phone to *CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK* heh! ouh yeah, Mus created a lame jokes about taking the pics. i was like asking them to quickly take photo 2gether by using the timer in the camera. and he goes Mussy nonsense. where's the timer? as in the TIMER! and he's like pretending to hold that TIMER here and there. AHAHAH! played Kimi PS with the game of "RESIDENT EVIL". ouh it's very scary alright. i think the game looks scarier than the movie. imagine playing the game. in the game you're the only soul survivor with lost memory. and the rest of the HUMANS! become monster coz kena disease ma....den den as you walk and walk, suddenly RAAAAHHHH! the monster or so called dead people appeared behind you! we play and play till we could smell the cake! apparently it took quite a long time for the cake to be fully bake. when i wanted to check for the cake, i nearly got my face chaolta! the hot air in the oven rush out as soon as i open the oven door. whoah! so oni my forehead felt HOT! geesh... overall, the cake taste WONDERFUL & DELICIOUS. i almost melt myself the moment i put the cake in my mouth and chew....WAH! there's still some room for improvement larh. need more practice to have an excellent cake!

here are some of the pics....

the cake b4 baking....CHOC CHIP CAKE!

the cake! sadly, all the choc chip sink to the bottom leaving the middle plain and the bottom and side dark!

ahaha! got nothing better to do.... ^_^

today, i woke up quite late. hehe.... coz was studying late at night again till ard 2.30am. and i continued studying again. so far, i've revised Math, Geog and Accounts. MOB? gosh, haven even start yet. everytime when i want to revise MOB i'll feel sleepy. -_-" maybe i'll try to revise MOB ltr.

now i feel like going to Sentosa alr......hmm, im still considering. coz i want to get myself drown for a while. heh :D

Sunday, June 15, 2008

was browsing through the pics and found this! ahah.... my youngest kitty was watching TV?! how cool is that? and its a cartoon somemore...ahahah >_<

firstly, i would like to wish all father a HAPPY FARTHERs DAY. well if im not wrong, the last time i celebrated fathers day was like a zillion years ago? geesh... if only daddy were to be a good daddy than i think i'll still celebrate it now. ouh well, i wouldn't want to bring up the past again. but seriously, even if you ask me to forget and forgive, im sorry but i can't. coz it hurt my heart so much that i will never forget about it. ok, he has done bad to mummy not me. but mummy has forgiven daddy and now they're on good terms. i just scared that history will repeat itself again, i hope it'll NEVER REPEAT. so now, i dont even care about fathers day but i still respect my father. it's just that i don't really give him the love as his child. he's just another human to me. we talk when we want to if not we just shut our mouth. okok, enough about the past. i've had enough of it!

ok, today same thing again, woke up "VERY EARLY". slept late again ystd coz i mug and mug for geog. how i wish that i could just scan and save in my brain like the comp. then i dont have to study like a nerd. ^.^ den same thing lar, cook for the family and mind my own business. hehe. was kinda worried for sis actually. dunnoe how she's gonna survive when she's married in the future. she lied to mummy and even her BF about going to aunts place. she went to somewhere else and reach home very very late. she broke her promise AGAIN! i mean, she actually did this like thousands or zillions of time? OMG! and how smart can she get? trying to prevent from getting a nag from mummy 2dae, she went out. GOOD LAR. and make me to be her victim larh. everytime when she did something wrong, i'll be the one who kena nag first followed by her. EH, HELLO?! IM NOT THE ONE WHO'S COMING HOME VERY LATE OR DO SOMETHING BAD. AND IM THE VICTIM HERE!!! T_T wonder when will sis ever gonna change. have she ever thought about mummy's feeling? somehow i got so pissed off that i actually rude to mummy. it does hurt my heart though but thats the only way that i can do in order prevent me from becoming the victim. ouh ALLAH! why does my family have to be in this state? and why is it always the MELAYU family that faces this kind of problem or maybe other family problem??? why? is it that we got not enough understanding or is it because we're lack of religious belief. T_T im getting emo here...but thank god 2mr i'll be out of home! yesh! ok, shall stop here larh. will update longer and crappier 2mr. coz 2mr will be going to Kimi's house to do some random stuff... will tell you wat we're doing 2mr hahas. i'll bet it's gonna be wild! =D

you are not the only one.
to tell you the truth, you're just like me.
somehow i feel that you're like the other me.
facing almost the same situation and feeling.
you're not alone, you still have me.
lets work our ass out together and succeed what we want!

Saturday, June 14, 2008

WE ARE FOR WHO WE ARE! =D

ok. so as you can see, i've change my blogskins again. ahah. dunnoe why but i just love to have a bigger view and at the center. HEH! aniway, i got nothing much to say about today. was all home all the way. didn't go out actually coz i kinda feel tired. woke up "VERY EARLY" like ard 12noon?! ahah >_^ then kena go cook lunch for the family. walao... eh, of course i go wash up first before i cook lar sey! if not arh....EEEEE!
shall end with some a song that's stuck in my head....!
ouh and it's actually in my friendster jukebox.

Dear Angel by April Sixth.
Dear angel of mine,
Where do I start to express how I feel?
Well, my love's gone blind.
Now all that I feel is what I hear.
Your words rip and tear, and through my heart so weak and pure.
Now I find myself wanting to die…

I bleed for the second time tonight
holding the love that's in my mind.
If only my love could be with you.
If only this pain, this pain died too
So I break you away, away, away from me.

As I sit here alone
thinking about everything that you said.
You know since I'm alone.
Well, maybe after all, I was better off dead.
Cause without you my life's gone down...
What do I do, when I find myself wanting to die?

I bleed for the second time tonight
holding the love that's in my mind.
If only my love could be with you.
If only this pain, this pain died too
I bleed for the second time tonight
holding the love that's in my mind.
If only my love could be with you.
If only this pain, this pain died too
I break you away, away, away from me.
And I don't know…I'll break you away!

Said, I'll break you away, away, away from me.
Sincerely Yours.

Friday, June 13, 2008

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST EVIL SISTER, OW YONG HUI MIN!
erh, did i get her name right? haha...
aniway, may you be bless with happiness and may all your wishes come true! ^_^
well at least i didn't forget your birthday, hmph!

ok, went out to study with Sahira at woodlands library. before that we had our lunch at the HALAL FOODCOURT which is of course Banquet lar. once we reach, the first thing we did was....find a place to sit. damn there were lotsa people and we couldnt get the nearest seat. found a table which was super damn far from the food stall but near to the cinema. then change our seat again, this time its nearer to the food stall. haha! then we went off to the library to study. sat ard the BUSINESS SECTION! wah sey, it's like im studying business FOR REAL! ahah. wait till i reach the correct age larh kay? =D aniway, we had a small little picnic there. hah! bought some snacks and drinks and we sneek it in. thank god that the security thingy didn't sound. if not DIE larh sey! and Sera was so excited bout the biscuit that i bought. i bought a biscuit that looks more like a baby food? ahah >.<
so, we couldn't focus much after all the joke that we had and we end up going back to NP. wasted few mins at Mac thinking of continuing to study or not but we didn't continue and we went back home. at home eat dinner then listen to radio. and now here i am blogging. OMG! SHIKIN! EXAMS IS DRAWING NEARER AND HEAR YOU ARE BLOGGING? GEESH...! lol

the one and only primary schoolmates!
we really look like some wierdos...

Dikin is the name!

What do I do, when I find myself wanting to die?
I don't know…I'll break you away!
Said, I'll break you away, away, away from me.
Sincerely Yours.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

the old sch gurl. HEH ^_^

aniway, 2dae got nothing much happening. basically at home ROT, SLACK like nobody business. HAH! was awaken by mummy early in the morning to go to the market. yeah, MARKET! gosh, been doing it lotsa time when im not schooling. geesh.... after that ate a pathetic lunch which consist of rice and egg ONLY! damn! mummy's like getting lazier to cook and i've to eat such a pathetic lunch and maybe no dinner??? well at least i got something to eat. MUST BE PROUD OF IT =P den kept disturbing my cats when they're sleeping. hehe. its so fun lar. if they can disturb me while im sleeping, SO CAN I! the best thing was to get bitten by them. wah SHIOK! then you'll see many scratches here and there. and of course blood! yes, BLOOD! once i was attack by my late cat at my hand and it hurts alot. but i still love them no matter WHAT!

so, was at home watching movies: FREEDOM WRITER & THE FORBIDDEN KINGDOM. freedom writer, hmm...its a really nice movie i say. was recommended by Herdy. this movie actually brought out lotsa meaning. the meaning of being hatred, racism, trust, family and of course FREEDOM! i mean it shows how important it is to have racial harmony. people not happy, they fight and even kill each other. a teacher dropped into a school torn by violence and racial tension battles an uncaring system in a fight to make the classroom matter in her students' lives. i give a thumbs up to the teacher who actually sacrifice to make a change for the better. sadly she was divorced by her husband. OMG! im glad that S'pore is racial harmony. if not i dunnoe what's gonna happen. i mean all my friends comes from different races and it hurts my heart seeing them fighting over racial issues. i'll say, you gotta watch THE FREEDOM WRITER. it's really a nice movie you know. thanks Herdy for recommending for like few months ago? oops! hehe...^.^"

guess im gonna have high blood pressure when im at home. worse still when im talking to her. dunnoe why but im getting more and more irritated when she talks to me. OMG! guess i really need some time to chill...
PEOPLE! PLEASE TAKE ME OUT! IM GETTING HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE LIKE SOON!!!!!!!!!! "[@_@]"

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

How is it feel to have your heart broken by someone whom you truly love? It hurts a lot isn’t it? Yes it does I mean like duh! I may not go into a proper relationship but I know how it feels. Or maybe I don’t really know that much =_=” But at least I know it hurts alot. Imagine your one and only BF that you love so much suddenly say “IT’S OVER BETWEEN US” and its all just because of one tiny issues. An issues which is you just answer some guy’s qns and HE wants to break up wif you. Don’t you find it too ridiculous? Ok maybe partly it’s your fault over that issue but overall it was HIM who’s being too much! Its not like you spend the whole day with some other guy, it’s just answering a qns! If he truly love you, he would have given you the chance to explain things right isn’t it? And that you can sit down and talk nicely to each other to prevent from breaking up? But the problem now is that he wouldn’t want to accept the explanation or even forgive you. And the stupidest thing is that he say, “Why should I forgive you?” don’t you find him being too petty like a girl? Asking that kind of qns makes him more like a girl than a boy. GROW UP LARH! What if he had done something worse than you and you forgave him BUT when it comes to you, he’s not forgiving you. Don’t you think he’s being unfair to you? Hmm… he’s not picking up your calls and even ignoring your msges. What will you do? Should you just move on with life and forget about him? Or should you fight back your rights and prove him wrong? A man should be understanding and give you a chance to explain things right. He shouldn’t have straight away “IT’S OVER” without knowing the actual fact. DAMN! I feel like slapping HE’S face! I may not know the actual fact but that’s how I feel.

To my dear girl:
Sorry I couldn’t help you much but at least I've tried. I hope you’ll get over it and not broad over it. Don’t be too sad ok? There’s lot more trees out there. He’s not worth for you as he’s being unfair to you. You have tried your best. No matter what, I’ll always be there for you. Cheer up babe!

ouh yeah! KUNG FU PANDA! it was a darn good movie to watch. i'll say, its kinda make you burst into laughter lotsa lotsa time. HAHA ^_^

had a date with my lovely JUDEs & DUDEs yesterday. apparently two of my loves couldnt make it. one of them went back to Philippine to study while the other shifted house. again our lovely date was incomplete....so i met the rest ard 12 plus and headed to town to watch KUNG FU PANDA! there was indeed alot of HUMANS! eventhough its Monday. thank god that all of the HUMANS there are all teenagers and adults. NO KIDDOS! :-D had our lovely lunch b4 watching the movie at PASTAMANIA which some of the MUSLIM thinks it's TAK HALAL! well by right it is TAK HALAL! but who cares! you just need to be careful of which dish you choose and you'lll be save. if not then don't go there and eat luh. -_^ so after the movie 2 of my lovelies went home and left the same 3 Judes plus Dy's cuzzie. ( Dy's cuzzie is sort of smarter than us! and he's only 11! O_O) same thing again we had our fav doing: STARBUCKING! this time it's at different place. if not it would have been at ONE FULLERTON but it was under construction. hmm....we went to the MILLENIA WALKWAY for starbucking. (i wonder if theres a place called INSTITUTE WALKWAY) HAHA! >.<"

alrights seriously, i think you shouldn't have gave your correct email. i mean when he wrote the wrong email there, you shouldn't have corrected it. but lucky you acted fast by saying not interested. how it's so coincidence that you're in the state where i've been through b4? it's so so weird. aniway, you better block that person and be aware always. wonder who's the idiot who play prank on you. hope you really curse that IDIOT!

Sunday, June 08, 2008

im too tired to blog but i just cant help it. =D
2dae went to watch Sparks Wind concert and damn im proud of it. there were lotsa soloist which mostly come from TRUMPET,SAXOPHONE & TROMBONE. they are indeed a strong and pro musicians. i'll say, they actually move their body when they were playing. now this include the TUBAIST! wuhoo! ^_^ 4 tubaist and all 4 move like nobody business! REALLY! i was quite shock when they move with their tuba.@.@
after that had dinner at Marina Square den hang ard the MERLION! heh, not at the merlion, its near the merlion walk lar dey!
didnt get a chance to chill at ONE FULLERTON STARBUCK. all thanks to the construction thats going on larh. hmph! >.<
so end up buying take away and drank at the "DURIAN" head! o.O haha at the esplanade rooftop lor...
kk, guess i'll stop here 1st. gonna meet my lovely DUDES & JUDES 2mr. so i wont be able to revise again. OH SHIT! 2 more weeks and it's MID-YEAR?! AND I HAVEN START REVISING YET??!!GOODNESS! #_# guess i gotta have my brain stuff with books ASAP!

Saturday, June 07, 2008

2dae i was super damn freaking early...

the first thing that came to my mind was..."is there band today?" ~_~

not even a single soul was there when i reach...

it was so different...

the usually people was not there and i was alone.

thank god, Mr Lim was there when i arrived.

so there's actually band prac BUT we started late -.-

had our own warm-up as usual but this tym it feels so awkward.

i dunnoe why but i just feel so weird...

attendance was not really good and we kena lecture by non other than Mr Z.Lim O.O

straight away it brings me back to sec sch when i was in NBCB.

the same scolding, quiteness and feeling.

i think every band faces the same problems.

after band went out for lunch den go "MAKE BOWL" :-D

heh, actually it's bowling. it's just some nonsense that we created.

and to tell the truth, im so so soooo retarded.

well not that retard, it's just that I'M LOSING ALL MY SKILLS!

goodness! it's been a while since i last bowled! o.O

at least i score 70 for one game and Birdie manage to beat more than 30! GOOD GIRL!

my hands/fingers is feeling very awkward now.

maybe bcoz of the Bass-clar. it's heavier than sec sch BC.

guess blisters will appear soon? OMG! 8-O

after reading through an old diary, i realise how much time really flies.

the old me and the new me...

life from primary to secondary and now in institute...

all 3 are so different.

got one i wrote, "I guess we will forget bout each other once we got separated".

and it's true actually.

didn't keep in contact will end up forgetting about each other.

all those memories will always remain as memories.

i guess i wasn't that aware of how much friendship means to me at that time.

but now i've realise how important it means to me.

but to a certain extend, i realise that mostly of my friends and non-malays...

it lasted longer than the malays.

i mean no offence lar. maybe im so used to mixing ard with multi racial groups.

now this really reminds me of my very own best friends that comes from diff races.

I MISS YOU GUYS/GALS lar!
okay shall stop here 1st.

2mr got concert to watch and will blog about it IF theres anything interesting kay? :-)

i've tried my best to be good but to a certain extend i just can't help it. somehow i feel quite weird when im with you. maybe im being too naive. be a good girl kay? don't follow me coz it's alr a habit for me. you still have a choice to make. so please choose wisely even if you're allowed to do so....

~kinkin~

Friday, June 06, 2008

im happy yet worried.

im happy that we're in the 1st division but im worried that we're the 1ST BAND to perform for 1st division category....

it was kind of shock but what to do...

a newly formed band perform 1st for NBC? goodness.

i mean oklar, 1st band to perform but...

argh, 4get it. Im gonna practice hard to the core for this NBC...

if i want MISB to achive good results, i've to practice hard and so do the rest of the bandits.

i hope they'll buck up and practice hard....MISB JIAYOU!

kay, 2dae not really good. its kinda boring...

the brasses got tutor to take them for sectional except for the woodwinds...

so the woodwinds was suppose to have their own sectional but end up SLACKING...

okay got practice in the beginning but ltr we all slack...

2mr's gonna be the last prac and i really hope more people will turn up.

NBC is drawing nearer and we can't afford to skip anymore prac.

time is crucial and we have to take every practices seriously.

sometimes i wonder if think twice exist...

well it does right?

it's just that not everyone think twice in the beginning...

it'll only work when they're being ask to...

after reading it i feel that everyone have to think twice.

not only that lar.

if lets say you've done something good, just be proud of it.

don't have to be too emotional if no one notice it.

im sure there's someone who have actually notice it.

it's just a matter of time...

how i wish i could be just a normal bandits.

but i noe i cant.

base on my previous post in sec sch, im sure i'll end up in one of the EXCOs.

UNLESS!..unless i slack lor...

BUT i noe i cant...

it'll bring bad impression for my testi...

i really thought it's fixed alr but when they announced that they wanted to have a vote...

i kinda feel abit relief.

well at least i can try to opt out from getting voted.

but i've to see the others.

hmm...i rather go by majority. seriously, i just dont feel like voting...

it'll still cause some unhappiness in the end...

i don't know why i acted out like that.

i'm so so sorry.

i just can't control myself.

everytime you talk to me, i got irritated and i'll start throwing tantrum at you.

i know im very rude to you and i know it really hurt...

im really sorry.

maybe i need some time for myself.

i know you wont be able to read this here...

i just cant bring myself to tell u face to face.

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

Hey! finally im back from the band chalet which is at ALOHA LOYANG RESORT.
seriously, i really need to get myself a driving license sia...
to think that the resort is so damn far (if you were to walk from the bus-stop)
ok, overall it's kind of "FUN"...hahax
ouh and i end up becoming a "PART TIME MAID"!
the whole place is so damn messy and dirty, and i couldn't stand it...
so me and Shi Hua clean the place with our own bare hand...
there was NO SPONGE! and i've to use my precious hand to wash the plates and cups =(
Me and HuiShi end up as owl till like ard 5 plus?
well we wanted to sleep but couldn't...
got addicted to the PSP and of coz the craziness in us...
we walk ard the resort for almost 2 rounds...
the first time was with Farith while the 2nd time was with A CAT!
yeup, the cat followed us everywhere we go...
after all the walking me and HuiShi end up resting along the roadside.
poor us,we so called sleeping cum emoing there..
but it's kind of cool actually.
we manage to take a nap like after 5am but not very long....
after that went to sch with Mr Z.Lim send us there...
wasted my time for lesson, we didn't really study...aiyo.

my other "half", Birdie!

the weirdos....

the cat that accompanied us....so cute rite? =D
niwaes, more pics will be upload next time...=)
i want go get my sleep alr...hahas

argh! Birdie, thanks ar! the song is stuck in my head liao!

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