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today, Musfitri was late by HALF AN HOUR! so much for me rushing like mad just to be on time. HMPH! i was supposed to meet Musfit at 7am at Yishun but he was late by half an hour. luckily Ain msged me, so i told her to wait first b4 going out of her house. so instead of meeting Ain at 7.30am, we end up meeting at 8am? HAHA!

MUSFITRI SUHAIMI! YOU OWE ME STARBUCKS FRAPPUCCINO!!!!

today i do not know why but the centrestage was freaking cold. seriously, its so cold that i kept going to the loo. HAHA! everyone was freezing like mad. its as if today was raining heavily that the temperature drops drastically due to the cold weather. but hell NO! it wasnt raining at all.

apart from that, today, Musfit taught me some dance steps. its been a long time since i last dance, so i was all kiasu when he taught me today. damn i am bad at dancing. HAHA! but i just learn it for fun. HAHA! i seriously need to get my body flexible! OMG! in addition, we had another retarded day today.

Ain sang a song like retarded which make us laugh like mad. den my retarded dance move made it even crazier. so end up all of us laugh like mad. really! our jaws and stomach were all aching!

two more weeks and we are still not ready. i am still worried for them. not to mention, the leaders! Abu when overseas leaving Ain alone to handle the job. The band, sigh....., just because Ain is not as fierce as me and Abu, they dont take things seriously. i feel like standing out there and lead them but i cant. coz im no longer a member. Ain is not ready to take over as VP but she got no choice. so all i could do now is to guide and support her. i believe she can lead the band. not with her retarded moment lah. HAHAH!

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Iberian Escapades.

i think by now, most of the peeps are in love with Iberian Escapades. it''s so damn nice and you'll be move by the beautiful mid section of the songs in which the slow part. not forgetting, the saxophone has a beautiful solo part there. it melts your heart out once you hear the solo part. chey wah.... HAHAH!

in short,i strongly recommend those symphonic band geek out there to listen to IBERIAN ESCAPADES arranged by Robert Sheldon! :) :)

Saturday, November 28, 2009

what have come of us.

the fact that J&D M made a confession in his blog makes me feel at lost. its not anything its just that, out of the blues, he made a confession about us.

each of us have different personalities and that we are all hooked up to different schedules. we have not been much in contact due to two of them sitting for their major exams while another is schooling in poly.. im just worried for our future. thats all.

but to our close bonding with each other, i just hope nothing will go wrong.

i do agree with J&D M. the fact that we are all spending more time with our outside friends, we tend to neglect each other but im cool. i understand coz i myself sometimes neglected them. its not that i want it but its just that our own outside frens have time for us than ourselves for each other.

we all have to face it. things are changing and we cant do much about it. we are no longer in our secondary school life. we are now in different lifes. the fact that we are all still close to our ties is because we still remember each other.

i do not wish to talk more coz it just pain my heart to see J&D bleeding on the inside. so what if we all have different expectation for each other? i dont care. i just want J&D to keep up with the ties and never break apart.

no matter what had happened, i just hope we all can sit down together and talk things out. for our friendship sake...please..... :(

Friday, November 27, 2009

MISSION ACCOMPLISH!

yes! finally we got hold of all recordings! hahaha! what a criminal. whoops! all of the effort put in finally paid off. THANKS ABU! hehehe.

first of all, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA. :)

this morning went to cemetery to pay a visit to the lates. the weather was freaking hot! my feet were burning like hell standing under the hot sun. got umbrella also no use. there were so many people, but its not as pack as during hari raya. in which there's room for cars to move easily than not being able to move at all.

today's also and very very very random day i should say. firstly, my drinks which is BANDUNG, dropped on my left feet. so much to catching the stupid mosquito. HAHA! secondly, i was holding my BANDUNG can and sis accidently hit my hand and there goes my BANDUNG under daddy's van. WAHLAO! my fav bandung ley!

followed by at home, my chair broke. so much for leaning back when the board came off. lucky i didnt fall. OMG!

today is really random. HAHAH! tho it was suppose to be solem but no. these random things make me laugh like mad. :)

Thursday, November 26, 2009

I Miss Late Madam Saripah Binte Shree.

nono. don't worry. im still hanging in here.

today is the eve of Hari Raya Haji. i was all alone and i cried the moment i heard the sound of prayers. i cried really badly coz i realise how late mother felt everytime during Hari Raya. the house was so quiet and i sat on the floor listening to the prayers.

i didnt do any cooking today knowing no one will be at home. so i end up asking daddy to buy take-away for me. i asked him to buy seafood noodle, he bought fried rice. WTH. but he bought Hor Fun and chicken rice coz he didnt know which one i wanted to eat. so i end up eating HorFun. i had too much chicken rice already. HAHA!

2mr is Hari Raya Haji so it means, i'll wake up early to visit the cemetery. sadly, i wont be able to visit granny coz she'll be going to Malacca with my aunts and uncles to visit relatives there.

when i am with them, my mind was filled with joy and laughter. when i am alone, i was filled with many sorrow and misses. i really envy those who have a full happy family. sometimes i just cant help but to say abt my late mother infront of them but i know they cant do much. non matter how sad my life is, i know there are others who are worse than me.

i wonder what's happening to the rest of my friends. my tagboard seem to be dead. yeah i know, its either no one read it or they are just too lazy to tag. O_O

ouh by the way, HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY CHERYL! its my junior from MI and not anyone else! may you have a blessful years ahead and may your wish come true. :)

till then,

Jokers All Day Round. :)

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

The Weird Sisters.

my wednesday was fully spent in school with band. well half of the day was serious with band. another half? go crazy with my camera.

its a happy and joy occasion day today.

in the morning instead of having sectionals, we camwhore. afternoon when Mr Ong came, we get down to serious practice. but then again when having break, we cant stop camwhore again.

it seems that Ain couldnt let go of my camera. once she got hold of it, so many pics were taken randomly by her. HAHAH! and so did J&D Musfit. hahah! yeah he came for band today.

today we celebrated Cheryl's birthday. we bought a cake for her. the funny thing, they had to eat the cake in the plastic cup. HAHAH! so much for Ain's crazy ideas. soon when the band was dismissed, we had a mini presentation among us. in which again, we asked Mussy to be our photographer.

we gave Cheryl a necklace with her name carve on the heart-shaped tag. followed by a photo of all of us together in which i find it sweet. Ain said that she wanted her to remember us all. aww....

so in conclusion, all of us are as crazy as ever. today i do not know why but Ain is seriously the victim for the day. she's the center of bully. as in all of us bullied her eventho she's our band VP. HAHAH! i pity you lil sis.

again, today was filled with so much laughter. but i doubt i would be as happy as today soon. 2mr will be the eve of Hari Raya Haji. sad to say, im gonna be alone again. since got night class, so i guess i'll be having dinner all alone. :(

Friday will be the moody day for me. :(

Labels: Crazy Day

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

aww....

well hell no, i am still angry here. apparently i do not wish to rot over it. its a waste of my time. lets just say im angry about some info that was not delivered to me and i didnt have a chance to get the stuff. it was too late. SL = STUPID LOSER. im referring to sl who are supposed to contact me!

ouh well, its useless to pursue this issues. its just stupid.

ok, enough about that. lets focus over here. there will be a charity concert on the 14th of december at MI. obviously its a symphonic band thing. hahah! MISB and JJCSB will be having a charity concert for St Lukes Hospital. but i doubt any of my outside band frens wanna come coz most of them dont appreciate band. :(

i hope 2mr will be make me feel happy and forget the sad things.

Monday, November 23, 2009

at one time you were laughing to the max due to the jokes created by your frens, soon you realise you were sad.

yes, i was happy and smiling and laughing to the max the whole day but just as i received the msg and reach home to take a look, my expression changed. its nothing much and you may fine it stupid. my pink rose given my Ain is gone.

daddy msged me this afternoon. he said the rose fall and is crushed. i was damn pissed and sad. i dunnoe why. it seems to me that anything or whatever that belongs to me, i really take it seriously. especially when its related to someone or remind me of someone.

like for this case, the pink rose was from Ain and it also reminds me of how much late mother loved roses. i cried the moment i see it gone with just like that. its almost the same way like how late mum pass away. a moment you were with it, soon when you left it, its gone.

i am totally in no mood now. i mean seriously, i am damn sad right now. not that because of the flowers but its because of how it gone just like that. :(

sad to say that whatever belongs to me, i'll take it seriously. and if its gone, i'll really cry.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

JPS!

its been ages since we last met and yes finally today we managed to have a so called reunion. all thanks to Syar's brother's engagement. :)

Saturday, November 21, 2009

today i was supposed to meet Que to go jogging in the morning but i was too tired the plan was cancelled. but in the end, i went jogging in the evening with Sahira, my primary school buddy. so i was darn late. foolish me for walking/jogging to the stadium, making Sera waited for me for half an hour. to my luck i manage to catch up with her when i realise she had left the stadium. sorry girl. :X

glad her exams finally over. at least i know who to look for when i wanna go jogging. hhah! its time for me to burn those fats. hahah!

things are getting more and more wild these days. me and my complicated partner. hais..... our facebook is getting more and more ridiculous. hahah! i guess our brain had too much nonsense in it. so much for chicken rice. AHAHAH!

ouh i really miss J&D so much. yes! Rose will end her exams officially next week on wednesday. but sadly, i've already got plans. sooo, i guess we'll have to wait till Herdy's free time than i'll drag the other two monkeys to meet Herdy in school. she got 4hrs break on tues and thurs. hahah! Herdy! be prepared for surprises! :)

we are indeed jokers.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Flower Day.

some people say flower day was last week. but to me, 20th November 2009 is the Razzi's Flower Day. yes, the P and VP decided to pick 20th Nov as their flower day. random surprise i suppose. haha!

so yeah, me and Ain bought flowers for our dearest ones. they totally have no clue what was going on till we explain to them. especially Cheryl, coz she was with us when we bought the flowers. Roses for our lovely teachers and yellow flower which i do not know what it's called for our dearest ones. sadly, Yvonne was not there. so we end up giving Keng Guan instead.

at first we panic coz got no camera but someone saved the day. huimin brought her camera and yay! many pics were able to take. haha! the paparazzi starts the moment the camera lands onto my hand. whoops! there' sure alot of blonde moment there. HAHAH!

both the me and Ain bought pink rose for each other. in which we love it. hahah! sweet!

so, mission 1 completed. now still got many more missions to do. damn! but who cares. as long as i can make them smile and happy, im sure these missions would be well paid of.

4.44AM

early in the morning. GOOD MORNING EARTHLING. hahahah!

ok crap.

i am still wide awake and am unable to shut myself for hours for a sweet dream. aww man! my cat is sleeping so comfortably on my bed now while im here by the laptop like an owl. hahaha! dang!

whats more, i'll need my energy for band prac later. if not, i'll end up sitting by the seats and watch them play. worse still, sleep. hahaha!

so yeah, Musfit will be following me later to MI for band prac. he wanted to join the band so now he got his chance. sadly, the extra euphonium haven repair so he's gonna just sit at the centrestage and sight reading the scores.

today is the day. 20th November 2009.

a very special day for two sisters that gonna bring huge surprises to others. i cant wait!

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Someone missing in that picture. Miss Rose alot.

yesterday was hell loads of traveling. basically going back and forth to the same place. nyahah! i had lunch with my dearest J&D H and M at Pizza Hut J8. student meal is what we all need. haha! sadly J&D R wasnt there. if not J&D would be complete. :(

after lunch Herdy had to go off and left me and Mus to slack all the way till 6pm while waiting for Bakh. we headed to Starbucks @ Cathay and slack there with my camera on. foolish of us for not thinking abt buying the tix earlier at PS which lead us to travel back to Bishan to get the tix and watched there.

watched 2012. hell yeah Musfit forever making me suspense with the movie. he and his scaredness. hahah! the movie was awesome for the action pack effect. i tell you, i got shocked and frighten when it comes to the most interesting effect. the sound effect was freaking loud that made me and mus couldnt stop making alot of noise. hahah. i dont mind watching it again leh. hehe!

so yeah, yesterday was a combined prac with JJC and i miss the chances. haha! if i know there were combined prac, i should've go back there. too bad, no one reminded me. haha!

2mr shall be a very special day for some of them. its a surprise. :)

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Colours.

this year charity concert theme is colours of life. a charity concert for a hospital which believed to have a deficit of abt 2million? whoah! im glad im able to help in the charity concert. i do hope people would turn up for the concert. even if they dont like watching, they could at least donate some. :)

in time to come, sis will be walking down the red carpet holding the arm of her true love. yes, sis is now preparing for her wedding in the next coming 2 years. haha! better prepare in advance than last minute. :) so yeah, many queries occurred me the moment she told me she's preparing for her wedding. will she leave me alone in this house and stay with her future husband in his house? suddenly it feels everything happens so damn fast.

at first, late mother left us. now, sis gonna get married. den what about me? do i still have to carry on and live independently. am i gonna carry all the burden all by myself? its hard. even if my friends say, "You're not alone. we're are here for you. be strong okay? cheer up." that's it? is that all they can do to help?

i mean yeah, i know they cant do much to help me. its because everything will have to go down to one person and thats me. but i really do not wish to get any of my friends involve coz i know, they themselves have their own problems. its easy for them to give suggestion but its hard to apply it.

they want me to go back school. yes i really wanna go back school. but you have to think back, its not gonna be easy for me to go back now. its the money issues. and one more thing, i really do not like to have a discussion abt this especially when i've already said, "i'll have to see first. its not gonna be easy." and stop forcing or keep reminding me about this. i dont like.

i just wanna enjoy life and forget everything for a moment. this year happening is too much for me to take in. i need to rest. please.... :(

Sunday, November 15, 2009

sleepless.

its 4.30am now and im still awake. i cant sleep neither am i dare to switch off the lights to sleep. i am still scared to sleep. how? gosh.

on my bed now is my cat sleeping soundly and comfortably with my comforter. how i wish i can sleep like him without any worries. now i am forcing myself to be brave but still no effect. i am still a coward. as in i dont dare to sleep in the dark. i am damn scared to sleep alone in the dark now. how? somebody please, save me. :(

i hardly show you my weakness so i wont be surprise if you are shock by what you have just read. whoops!

i need some courage.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

bored. dang bored.

like seriously, i am damn bored. i want to go out to have some fun but it seems that NO ONE was available. each and everyone of them got plans which make me feel so sad. :(

yeah i know its weekend and its family day. i dont have any family day and i really wish i could experience that. having spending time together with your whole family rather than spending your time alone like a loser is just uhhh. :( life just sucks.

damn it!

ouh snap!

last few days i spent my time for band. sadly the band didnt change abit. its still the same, attendance problems. sigh....

yesterday was friday the 13. i dont see anything much except during band prac where edward had soo many clumsy moments. haha! in the evening, i had dinner with the sec school babes. my tummy was not happy for no reasons. sadly i didnt stay out yesterday night with them due to certain issues on me. sorry girls.. :(

so yeah, i'll be busy mostly on day 1,3 and 5 due to my all time commitment which i cant let it go. haha! whoops! unless YOU YOU or YOU book me in advance, i'll be more than happier to skip the practices. haha! whoops!

i miss J&D. :(

Friday, November 13, 2009

phobia.

Horror/scary or whatever movie that makes me feel scared will be BAN from now on. like serious shit. i had a hard time sleeping peacefully yesterday night after watching movie with shiela and syidah. i was damn scared that i forced sis to sleep with me.

today i woke up at 5.45am knowing sis is getting ready for work. i couldnt sleep alone nor i feel secure. so i end up staying awake and force myself not to sleep. :(

its gonna be a hard time for me these few days to have a peaceful night. :(

ouh yeah, this morning i woke up, one of my cat went missing. we search high and low for him but we coudnt find him. den ard 7am plus i heard his bells. who would have tot that my cat actually slept in the cabinet. i wonder how he went in there. the cabinet door was fully closed and he was inside there sleeping. haha!

so now i am waiting for the perfect timing to get ready to go to back to MI for band practice. yes, i am going back for band to be one of the performers for the upcoming charity concert. for charity sake, i am willing to sacrifice my time. :)

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

weird sisters.

its tuesday now and im dang bored. i think every tues and thurs i'll pay herdy a visit to her school. hahah! I miss J&D!

Monday, November 09, 2009

it just sad when a band with a total strength of about 50 members drops drastically to less than 30. that also you cant even have at least 20 people turn up for practice. its just heartbreaking. their love for music is still there but they just dont want to show it. in addition, they did not show anymore interest with the band. sooo, in the first place, why bother joining when your attendance sucks? alot of people now gone. sad. its always the good players that are sucks at their studies. A'lvl is just not us. we are more to practical and not theory. HAHA!

i was unable to have a good night sleep yesterday. probably because i drank coffee. hahah! i was unable to turn off my mind till ard 4am. this morning i was hoping to wake up really late knowing i slept late last night BUT i can't. there were some renovation going on at one of the house in the flat which cause me to wake up from my dream. idiot.

herdy told me that NYP is having an IT sales and to my OMG, they selling IPod at a cheaper price. AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just my luck for buying it early. :( sadly, the shot ends 2mr. boohooo....

i miss camping. hearing that Ain is going for leadership camp reminds me of the old days where im so active in camps. :(

isnt it great to go for hiking from Changi (which is soo not a very nice place to camp) to East Coast (a place which is awesome to thon) HAHAH!

ouh! Dear MusFit will be ending his O's on wednesday BUT sadly Dear Rose will be having her A's 2mr onwards. ouh well, i guess J&D awesome reunion will be on the 25th onwards then. :)

I love J&D. i really do. :)

Sunday, November 08, 2009

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yesterday i was unable to wake up early in the morning due to the tiredness on friday. i managed to force my tired body up ard 11am and make myself moved. as usual i do my daily housework. in the evening i made my way to woodlands to meet the Evil people for dinner followed by concert. :D

the concert supposedly start at 8pm but we met at 4.45pm. apparently everyone was late! AHAHA! the concert was great.

before the concert, to my surprise, i cried the moment i saw someone that resembles mummy. :( i managed to pull through for i didnt wanna ruin my saturday night. thank God, the concert manage to entertain me.

my friends add more spices to my saturday night. i really love them. i really do. they just can't stop making me smile alot. right after concert, we had our ouh so DAMN fun hobby; photo session. Yvonne managed to drive her daddy's car to RP, sooo she gave us a ride back. poor Ain, Huimin and Cheryl had to take train home. who ask them to live in the the diff direction. AHAHA! but i pity Cheryl who lives in the east. i got a ride home from Yvonne and i say WOW! she tends to speed! hahah! OMG! i'll make sure i'll control her speedy when im in the car. hahha!

today i spent my sunday at home restlessly. i only i could skip sunday every 2weeks. i'll only spend my sunday when i've to pay a visit to the cemetery.

shiela was right, i am not ready to the life out there. :(

Saturday, November 07, 2009

Tired.

its 2am in the morning now and i just got settled down at home. i was out the whole day with Vone at JP shopping our ass out.

its like whoah! one day is just not enough to cover up the whole JP for shopping. like seriously, we spent too much, just TOO MUCH time on each shop trying to decide our freaking mind of which or what to buy. i was so cashless today and i simply bought everything through NETS. HAHAH!

i think if a credit card were to be in my hands, the bill will surely goes all the way up to 4digits. of course i know my limits. hahah!

i can't wait for next shopping session with Vone again. so fun!

we spent our time out from like 1pm till 10pm at JP. shopping, what do you expect. hahah! so we left JP for home but i end up hanging out with the usual girls at the usual spot. i bet Vone is sleeping so soundly now or even when im still chit-chatting at the usual spot, i think she slept already. haha!

i was yawning so many times but i didnt feel like going home. my body wants to go home and sleep but my mind doesnt want. so too bad, since one of the girls need to go home, all of us went home.

later in the evening i'll be out again for Helmi's concert. BLACKnWHITE yo!

one day is never enough. haha!

Thursday, November 05, 2009

5 Months.

Today marks 5 months of life without a mother.

5 months of independence for me. :(

5 months....

life goes on as usual.

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

i wasted 2hours waiting for the queue no. 8100 to appear today. it was a freaking HOT day and there were soooo many people at ICA collecting their passport. daddy uh, wants to go in the afternoon. bad timing. bad.....

soon when we reached yishun later on, bought some kitchen stuff den went to buy food. i do not know whats wrong with me but i was impatience. i went to daddy asking him to go pay for it and guess what he said? "Wait lah. The other food from this stall haven finish cooking. don't talk to me like that eh. very rude. can talk properly right." obviously he talked in his fatherly tone.

its was already my way of talking like that and he did not accept it. after all these years, didnt he realize my characteristic? you have to be an obedient girl, polite and super respectful when talking to him. no friend-friend talking kind like how i always talked to mummy.

so i simply asked him for the car key and took my stuff and leave him behind while waiting for the stupid satay to cook. i cried on the way back. i cried really bad till i reflected of the past where i always depend on mummy.

now that she's gone, i got no one to really depend on. there were no more sense of belonging in this house.

i'm left with just myself and my friends.

but mostly i need to be independent but im tired of doing it alone. i need a shoulder to lean on and i need someone to share the burden with.

this life just suck big time. :(

Monday, November 02, 2009

Maid.

i woke up this morning and the next thing i knew i was in the mood to house cleaning after breakfast. it was like whoah...since when my engine is so into this? haha! i find that once im into doing something, i'll be hooked in it.

i was actually vacuuming the house when suddenly i started to play with it around the house. i vacuum here and there. including SCARRING MY CATS. AHAHAH! ouh not forgetting when i mopped the floor, my cat was playing around with me. ahhaa! ok siao.

its been 2weeks of life without cooking proper meal. i gave up on this.

its like a 21yr old and a 51yr old is depending on an 18yr old girl for food. its unfair. why am i as the youngest had to do all the work and responsibilities. i mean im the one that do MOST of the housework and chores and whatever shit. she? cant blame her cause she got work BUT what abt weekends when she's not working?

all she did was just wash the clothes. thats its. if she wash the clothes she wont be bothered to fold the clean clothes if she's too hooked on the stupid laptop. also she wont be bothered to clean the house. like vacuum of mop. i got really angry with that. its unfair. the load shit should have be taken fairly. im the youngest and shes the oldest. i dont see any fairness for im the one that's doing the eldest job. WTF!

my father? all he did was to go out in the morning, come back home in the afternoon, buy me lunch if i aske him to and went to sleep after that. then go out in the evening and come back home late. he'll only do the work if hes in the mood. WTF!

so now, i vowed not to do any cookings. i dont care. call me selfish i dont care. i had enough of them depending on the youngest for all this shit. it should have been the other way round. FCUK lah!

enough is enough.

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