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OUH THANGETCHI!
i sooo don't like my internet connection. dang!

ouh well, there goes my picture-less post AGAIN! i've to admit, i've been waking up late for the past few days due to my laziness. hmm, even if i wake up early, what am i gonna do? can't eat, can't drink, got nothing to cook, got nothing to do. so? i woke up late uh. AHAHAH! rubbish. but thanks to my forever buddy who never fails to WAKE ME UP EARLY at times, i was awake like around 8am at times. but then again i tend to fall back asleep. ahahah!

ouh not forgetting, Happy Teachers Day. ahah!
i feel so guilty for not coming to BOTH SIDES.
1) NBS. its because MusFit performed with his yet another crew -.- but i was caught with my other cliques.
2) that is MI. already made plans with them to go back crashing. but what happen today???! i was too tired and end up not going. feel so WALAO!
sorry guys, didnt mean to disappoint you. :P

one cute week have passed and i've completed one week of fasting. i've manage to pull through.

i really miss those old times with them. i miss the fun we had. i miss the hearing of laughter from them. i miss those lame jokes. i miss those blonde moment. i miss having our all time fav drinks at Starbucks.
its because some of them are in the war with their MAJOR EXAMS and maybe too busy with other plans that is not as important as their major exams, we were unable to fix a time for a date. tho i've sacrifice my work for them, still not all are free. tsk!
right now i am feeling guilty for not being able to celebrate Herdy's birthday. i feel so bad that i haven got a chance to surprise her. i know right now she would feel sad and was wondering if we ever had any plans for her birthday. its like for the first time, all of us are too busy for one another. if i were to do it myself, i wouldnt want to end up having the rest thinking that im being selfish. :(

Dy, im sorry for delaying your birthday celebrations. its not that we forget your b'dae, its just that we haven had a time for each other. LIKE REALLY THE FOUR OF US TOGETHER. we will celebrate it real soon yeah? really am sorry... :(

i really miss J&D.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

yesterday, 25th of August 2009, was indeed a day full of tears and joy.
Happy 54th birthday mummy. i know we can no longer celebrate together but i will pay you a visit to yours and sing for you there. :)

i was indeed emotional yesterday but thanks to shiela's accompany, i wasnt tat emotional.
really thanked her alot for sacrificing her time to accompany me down to LCK and pay a visit.
after that, we spent the whole day enjoying ourselves at JP before heading down to Popeye's @ Flyer to break fast with the B5 girls.

"Where Got Ghost?" movie was indeed a good movie. it does gave us some lessons there. there were 3 short stories and of all 3, the 3rd story touches me and i cried. i cried for one reasons, my mother. it just so touching and emotional; and that it's so like in my situation about your late mother is watcing over you. of course not the fact about ghost lah. its only towards the ending of the story that really made me cry. thank god shiela was there or else i'll be paisey crying in the cinema.

so thanks to my camera, i manage to put things behind for while and get high with shiela. loads of pics taken tho. the B5 girls really gotten high during breaking fast. too much chicken i think. i really miss having fun with them. im glad i met them yesterday for they really made me laugh like siao. i love the part when its raining and brisk walking. :)

i am so annoyed with this server that's sot dot. its either my internet connection or the wed itself. so irritating that i feel like stabbing it like hell till its perfectly fine for me to blog! hmph!

J&D. i really miss the laughter from you. i want your booster please....!!!!!!!!! heheh!
meet up soon! :)

Saturday, August 22, 2009

i told myself not to cry but i still cry.

when break fast, my heart ache really badly. its the first time in my life, breaking fast without a mother. i look at daddy i feel even more sad. i look at sis, even sadder. and then, i look at that empty chair. i could still remember how sad mummy was everytime we break fast. now i know exactly how she felt every time during the month of ramadhan. i am facing what she had faced. it hurts your heart really deeply.

having your loved ones not by your side anymore really pains the heart. as i type right now, i am indeed crying. i can't help it. yes i know, you want me to cheer up but as i mention before, i can't help but tears keep rolling down my cheeks.

i really cant imagine whats gonna happen in the future.

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY to MISS HERDAWATI DWI LIYANA BINTE CHUMARE!!!!
ouh goody. my dearest bestfriend. you're finally 18 so that means we can have our own clubbing!
get drunk with caffeine i presume. of course our dear Miss Nathan must wait till oct 9 den can join us. ahahah!

its the first day of Ramadhan and i really didnt feel the spirit. usually i'll get excited or feel different when fasting but now... :(
i know i know, yall want me to stay strong and soon i'll pull through blah blah blah. i'm trying my best.
but then again, i really do not know how my raya for this year will be like. i am not really looking forward to it actually.
i just wish that time would reverse back and allow me to make amendments so that things won't be in this way now. than again, it won't happen. life have to move on. thats what people always say.

i really miss my dearest Judes&Dude. all of us have our own matters to deal with, leading to the lack of time for meet-ups. Rose and Mus are in the battlefield with their major exams. Rose is having a war with her A'levels while Mussy is having his war with the O'levels exams. ouh not forgetting Herdy also having her exams too. i really wish them all well and best of luck! :) as for me, sort of doing well now. getting the hang of waking up early for work. to tell the truth, you guys were still sleeping soundly when i reach my work place. that is, depends on my punctuality, 6am. i really can't imagine how im gonna face for work now that its Ramadhan. :(

ouh hurry get this war end soon so that i can meet-up my dearest Judes&Dude.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Happy National Day. hahah!

Friday was the bestest day i ever had. as you know, schools celebrated N.Day on friday yeah? so, early morning as i rode the bus, i observed my surroundings. i went all smiled when i looked at those singaporean students. people are all dressed up in reds/whites and some even in their traditional costumes. me? im in my casual clothes as if im going work. by right i should but by left, i went back school to crash.

so there i was, going in with an innocent face together with the rest of the millennians in the "Retro" costumes. i was soo happy for having a success in the crashing. in class, instead of listening to the programs, i was the center f distraction with my camera. all was hooked up to my camera for pictures captured. how happy can i get seeing my dearest classmates going all round as crazy as me. ahah! even the teachers are happy to see me back. :)

right smack after school, headed for lunch and then off to our 'ouh so wonderful trail', trip to Henderson Wave. it was sure a long journey tho. there, i found a new crazy idea of what to do the next time i had a date with J&D. set your camera to BURST MODE. :D

it was a wonderful journey that we end our trip at vivo. with a regular size of ultimate mocha from coffeebean and a snap shot at the rooftop. also, a moment of air and gazing at the wonderful moon by the sea. :) i love my friday, 07/08/09.

as i reflect back for the past two days, i realise it has been raining for me. 2 wedding invitations, seeing the family, i cry. why? theres someone missing. i don't have to elaborate on that. but sunday, cuzzin's wedding, was really a raining day. it just ache my heart as i hugged my aunts. for i know, the most respectable and loving person was not there and me & sis represented her. i see them cried, i cried more. its been only 2months plus now. hari raya is just around the corners and i don't really see the need to celebrate this year.

i've found a professions: a photographer who loves to bake. a baker who is a photographer. hahah! :)

Sunday, August 02, 2009

its been long since i stay out late at night. to tell the truth it is wonderful to stay out late but there is always a limit to it. so what if people call me free or am having a care-free life? i rather turn back the time now and make things right.

i really miss those moments i had with my fellow millennians.

walking down the road to Mac for breakfast. rushing our way for morning assembly. searching for my wonderful class and fighting for our space with other classes. playing jokes on each other. having as much fun and encouraging each other during PE. damn i really miss those times.

finally i really make a visit back and they sure the same as ever.

one after another. from MI to NBSS. a dinner with them sure very chaotic. but whats more fun is the time we sit and catch things up till late night.

sometimes i feel that i rather be alone than having company. what's the point asking them out when you always get disappointment replies right? so irritating that i just go on my own.

sigh...no use saying for this will never stop. really.

at times i told myself, try to keep a distance so as not to be a disturbance in your life.

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