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i had loads of fun hanging out with J&D! they're the only one that can make me laugh out load and crap nonsense out.

so once again, we met up and celebrated Mussy's Belated at Seoul Garden @ Marina. this time we dont really ate TOO MUCH but we had TOO MUCH of making fun at each other and the way of cooking. haha! :)

i have to admit, we got close in a very unique way. i dont think any close clique will ever be the same as us. you cant beat J&D neither you can be one of us. J&D shall remain as we are.
so stop acting or trying to be part of a close clique if you can't get close. just face the truth.
(i just cant stand watching people trying to get close to a clique when they can't be one)

now, 1 week left and the pressure is getting heavier.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

its been long since J&D had their conference call. surprisingly we had one ystd! :)
again, Rose will never fail to be the last to call and the first to go. ahaha! so its back to the three of us to continue the talk. plan whats to be plan and poof! the plan wil sure be unplanned. ahah!
can't wait to meet them soon. ;)

haha! apparently, i've been skipping school lately. sigh...

Monday, April 20, 2009

Cruelty.
it just pain my heart seeing deaed animals especially CATS on the road side or wherever. they are also a living things and are like humans. they eat, sleep, live to survive. who could have thought that the corpse i saw was very very saddening. its either it got run over by a vehicle and the driver just put it one side or an animal abuser kill it. i dunnoe. i just can't bear to see it properly. the sight of it just make tears roll down my cheek.
i just hope all animal would live longer and lead a good life. there's always difficult times but PLEASE! do not abuse animals for they are also like humans who got life. :)
(no im not any animal activist. its just my opinion.)

Saturday.
Band exchange at HCI. the worst performance i ever had in my band life! idiot! i just can't stand it. im just angry with myself for having a horrible performance!

im still counting the days.

Monday, April 13, 2009

Tired. Sick.
im so so tired that the flu came and stuck on me. damn it. now the tissue will have to be around me 24hrs. tsk!

im too tired to crack my brain. been missing from school lately. well, missing once every week. how the hell am i gonna cope? now, almost every week, i've to sacrifice my time from school to mummy. too many appointments! very irritating.

irritating in a way that the appointment is one after another and at TWO different places.
TAN TOCK SENG HOSPITAL & YISHUN POLYCLINIC.
you cant expect my sister to accompany mummy coz she got work. i dont wanna her to always take leave and i dont trust daddy. he always went missing or got something on and would leave mummy alone. IN ADDITION, he always COMPLAINING! worst than an old lady! why isit always has to be during my very important year? :(

im beginning to not committing myself to school. im so so tired and now flu?
i wish i could sleep and rest for a long long time till the perfect time comes for me to be awake.
i guess im overworking myself. :(

Friday, April 10, 2009

Guilty. Sad. Worried. Stress. Tired.
what's more can i say. i wish time would stop and let me rest in peace for a moment but i know i cant. so long as im still alive, i will do my best and hope to accomplish what is needed especially in school.

im proud to be in MI for i have friends who are very concern. im very proud to have them. we got close only on the later part of the year (2008) and poof, we're like friends for 3 years. that reminds me of J&D. haha!

4 years of schoolmates but only got close during the final year. :) now we're close like 4 years of friendship. im proud to have them for they are unique! i repeat, J&D are UNIQUE! J&D lets go dancing again at Yithib/Khashun Stadium. ;D ;D;D

so today is GOOD FRIDAY. didnt get to meet J&D for my granny, aunt, uncle, cousins and niece came down to visit mummy. it was NOISY! ok basically its the small kids (my cousins and a niece) that ran around the house and disturbed my poor cats non-stop. haha! pity those cats. i bet my cat couldn't sleep in peace just now.

one thing im proud of today:
i shoot back at my uncle's so called joke? or should i say counter-attack him. in a good way of course. i wont be that rude unless its over my limits. :D :D :D

the days are still counting. sometimes things are better kept low. but i know it'll sure gonna be heart-breaking.
thank you Farhana and Abu for being concern. don't worry, i'll stay strong and will do my best. im proud to have you guys :)

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

for the past few days.
all the prayers are answered.
i thank Allah for answering my prayers.
i thank all who have given their prayers for mummy to get well.

im happy that mummy finally back home. though she's back theres still more to worry. whose gonna take care of her? all of us are busy with our work and school. she has not fully recover and she cant stand long or walk properly. she needs the support to walk around.

im happy yet worried. :(

Monday, April 06, 2009

the fact that you're away, the house feels very empty.
its so empty that all the laughter and noise are gone.

my heart ache when i see you going through the pain.
i wish i could take away all the pain
and let you rest in peace.

leading a normal life.
walk easily with no worries.
that's what i wish you could do.
but i know, you can't
for its the fact that you're sick.

tears kept rolling down my cheek
everytime i see you in pain.
my heart, my eyes....
its so heartbreaking that i just can't stop crying.
i wish that im the one who is in pain.

every now and then, my worries kept increasing.
seeing you in this condition just make me even more worried.
everything is meaningless without you.

mummy, please get well soon.
the house is empty without you.
please come back home soon.
i miss you mummy.

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