last night i had dinner with the girls at IMM. so much for wanting to eat at Yew Tee when we don't even know whats nice there. haha! i went for band earlier on while waiting for them to finish their mock exams. how i miss mugging myself up. lols.

there were only Yr 1 at band. congrats to those who manage to get promoted. haha! at least my weds was spent nicely by learning some music theory. wow. Mr Ong sure is a good teacher. after that when the girls are done we head down to IMM for FOOD.

i had chicken cutlet and it seems that the chicken was big enough for me to eat without any rice. it was filling. but...there were some inside joke happened the moment i ate the chicken. i cant remember what we were talking about when suddenly i got choke.

it was to most random moment for me to actually make fun of myself just bcoz of chicken -_-" so much for laughing that i dont know why i said chicken choke! in fact actually i got choke by the chicken. not CHICKEN CHOKE.

the year end sales is starting already and i cant wait to go shopping. anyone wanna tag along? ahaha!

i was on the computer trying to switch it off when suddenly something push/pull me all the way back. something just went through my spine and blood gush out none stop. i was in freaking pain. i was brought to the hospital and the doctor said i need to make two choices. one, the doctor need to "cut" my spine for it got affected badly. two, i have to undergo some stupid shit. apparently, i will be paralyze for the rest of my life no matter what.

it was just a dream. hell no way im gonna let myself in that situation unless got some stupid "war" going on. phew...

ouh well, for the past few days i've been having stupid dreams. but why? in this dream, at least one of us get hurts. its so heartbreaking. and make me worry for the future. -_-

i hope nothing will happen.

currently i like part of my life at home. after 4pm i can have the whole house to myself. which means nobody is at home except me. soo i would just go crazy and do whatever i want as long as im happy. ahhaha!

you sent me msgs of people cutting themselves. you sent me msgs about people who are sick. you told me people are encouraging you to cut yourself just because you are having problems. that does not make sense. i was soo worried for you. you told me you're gonna cut yourself and let you die. NO! i was damn worried but i was unable to get to you immediately. why?

ouh well, what you've just read up there is nothing but a dream. i do no want it to be a nightmare for i do no want it to come true. YES its just a dream.

in this dream i lost my good friend. NO WAY im gonna let this happen in my real life. NO! i lost a very good best friend once and i'll never gonna lose another forever. be it J&D or anyone else. i take friendship seriously for friends are the only one that i can depend on now.

btw, i think i saw a shooting star last night. :)

went to watch 500 days of summer of friday with Yvonne. its something unique. i mean like, this movie is like a diary. it was cool! right in the evening, watched NUS band concert. i could say wow! to the audience. ahah! coz we clap louder than the band. -.- haha! ouh well, there were more audience than the band, of coz they got overpowered, DUH! haha!

ystd was nothing but useless and reckless. since she didnt want to take the move than its fine with me. im not the one that's lost. from now on, i'll live partially like a P.O.W.

no way im gonna be the old me to help out like a maid. its time for them to NOT depend on me too much. so what if they are working, that doesnt mean i cant have freedom isnt it?

and since you don't trust your own, than im fine with it. i will not be responsible to anything.

i had enough. i lead my own life, you lead yours. fair.

your outing for three days was nothing but bullshit! you lied! you lied to me and the rest. i guess you just cant beat the habit away. ouh well, i can't be bothered with you anymore. you lead your own life, i lead mine. fair enough.

you have no idead whom im referring to. like serious, i can't be bothered with this person anymore. DANG! ouh well, im off to meet Yvonne now for movie and concert. :)

today is the day where Shikin nearly got choked by thick smoke. if she were to wake up real late and if Farhana didn't msg her, i think Shikin will get choke to death? WHATEVER!

Daddy boiled chicken in the morning and forgot to turn off the fire when he went out. i do not know since what time he boiled it but when i woke up ard 9.30, the house was filled with smoke. lucky theres no fire.

so many things seems to be happening to my buddy. i just hope she'll pull through and be brave enough to stand for her rights. wishing her all the best for the coming exams. i know she can do it. :)

my saturday night was spent wonderfully at the esplanade. went to watch Impak Maksima The Musical on a typical saturday night. ahah! it was sooo damn nice! i love the songs and the performance but one thing i realise, i still don't get the whole story. ok some parts of the show i understand ahah! the cars is so wonderful and to think that they really drift it live on stage for dunnoe how many times. there's even some motor bikes there. cool!

i love the dance moves. damn nice! :)

sis had gone to chalet for three days with her friends and will only be back on monday. so it all goes down to only me to do the household chores. tell you the truth, i've been the one thats maintaining the house for almost everyday. ever since Mother's departure, the house been nothing but empty. someone in the house has to take over her role. i really thought that the responsibility would be fairly separated but i was wrong.

yeah i know, sis got work and daddy got his own biz. so left me in the house to do it. i ignored my current job knowing it is flexible. stay at home and take care of the house. i know Mother wouldn't want the house to be dirty and messy. but then come on uh, i also need some break. and my break is like half a day? if i don't do the housework, no one will. at most sis will only wash the clothes. -_-

for the sake of Mother, what to do... :(

it is something that i feel i should give them a lil give that'll make them remember each other. i spend my nights truthfully just to came out with this gift. a collage of our gorgeous hands worth diff sizes. ahaha! i love J&D. :)

yesterday i was all out with AhMouse. well we were supposed to watch movie with the others but since i've watched it i decided to meet them for lunch. from there we went apart and left us. walking down from Bugis to all over city hall. its like you walk around the tracks for like maybe more than 12 rounds? i don't know. all i know is that we just couldnt resist on visiting every corner of the place resulting us walking non stop. HAHA!

today i do not know why but it seems that im taking over my late mother's role. simply because i can't stand seeing my house in a MESS. that's include daddy's room. ouh God! also the weather is not happy so i decided to be a potato at home. HAHA!

i am craving for Yam Ice-Cream. mmmmm....

Monday. a day where people experience monday blue. apparently, this monday was a day full of surprises.

Yesterday was indeed a darn fun and full of surprisse for Rose though the weather was not feeling well. Herdy and i had to battle our way through the heavy rain just to surprise Rose at town. after which Mussy surprised her at city hall. :)

it was indeed a unique day. Rose totally had no clue of what was going on when she was with her YJC fren. after which we pop up and they hand Rose over to us. it is a secret of how we get connected with Rose YJ fren. :)

our plan went smoothly eventho there were few panic situation of certain stuff. thanks to the extended promotion, we had our fun ride with the flyer and we treat it like we own the whole capsule. after which, picnic! our day went on quickly and we end our night with ice-cream. ahah!

ouh and before i end, i gave J&D a surprise with my wonderful "chocolate" art piece. ahahah! :)

today i experience quite a different atmosphere. i seriously do not know why. woke up in the morning and i refuse to speak much. all i did was 'umm' 'ahuh' yaa..' or worst still, showing a cold answers. went to cemetary to pay visits to my late mother, throughout the journey and visit i simply not in the mood to talk alot. even when we go to supermarket for kitchen stuff, i refuse to talk much. its like im having a bad day. well not.

today, i do not know why my mood simply changes for no reason. im simply refuse to talk properly to daddy and sis. also in addition, its a clumsy day.

i accidently scalded my hand twice at the exact same spot and i accidentally cut myself once. ouh this morning my leg almost got stad by a scissors. its no ordinary scissors, its more like a tool where technicians or mechanic use. well, dad accidently drop it while trying to open the stupid van door. sigh....

today, i was unable to go for 3/4Benevolent reunion. i really miss them alot as its been long since we last gathered and have fun. i hope there will be another reunion in nov or dec. :S

sigh....what a day. :(

as quoted from Miss Herdz.

i have to admit, i can't agree much more than anything else. people do change.

a friend of mine is having some personal affairs problem and i feel like a useless friend. i just don't know what to do or how should i help this person. i don't wish to be involve much in it as its between them and its up to them to make the decision on their own. yes you can ask around for oppinion but then again it will all go back to yourself to make the decision.

everyone told this friend of mine not to waste time on the other party and i have to agree with them after knowing what had just happen to my friend this morning. i really hope this friend of mine will be brave enough to face the other party and do whats their decision will be. i'll always be there for you.

facebook is giving attitude. it just doesnt want to appear eventho i've reload tonnes and tonnes of time. idiot. ouh and and MR MUSFITRI BIN SUHAIMI BAILED ON US WITH HIS SLEEEPPPP!!!! so much of his thinking. hmph!

tonight shall be a date with my brooksians ladies. another late night date. haha! :)

till then, enjoy the day people.

like seriously, i do not have the confidence to step forward. there were a few vacancy but i just couldnt make up my mind. i can be fussy at the job scope at times. i tried my very best to get out of F&B industry but it seems that there were more vacancy in F&B.

i don't mind joining cisco but then again the headquarter is at payar lebar which is damn far from yishun. why ouh why? i just could not make up my mind of what kind of job scope should i join because i love to be involve in many things.

i guess my passion is still in confuse. :(

what you know? tears suddenly rolled down my cheeks a few times today. basically because i miss mother. another thing is i was damn pissed cause i had to do all of my mother's role today. ok well almost EVERYDAY! yes i know sis is working and is tired but what about today? both daddy and sis went out and they asked me if i want to follow. i simply rejected them for i know there's housework to do.

the house was in a mess and i hate to see such mess. late mother always said, "Always keep the house clean. i don't like to see it dirty." that sentences kept running into my mind and tears will always roll down my cheeks.

so if i were to follow one of them today, whose gonna clean up the house? by the time they come back, they would be tired and wouldnt wanna clean up the place.

thats why i didnt wanna follow them.

its just hard to live without a mother. i really miss mother very much. :( :(

i spent almost the whole day with Herdz at town. i swear i am controlling my ATM! new cafe called Dr Cafe? is not bad actually but the service is poor. i still prefer starbucks! it was like they forgot about my drinks and didnt like give compensate like how starbucks do. wahlao! tho the drinks is nice but still their service need to be improve.

its a must for both me and Herdz to get at least one thing for ourselves and we did. haha! tho we spend most of our money on food. we lose money but we gain weight. ahahah!

i feel like a maid. everything i do. okay more like im the part time housewife? ahah! so what? its to teach me how to be a housewife or how it feels to be doing the housewife work? LOL

one by one give "attitude". i swear, i'll throw bomb if this continue. :)