thatGIRL

what else could i say. i spent the whole day at home like a fool! going in and out of my room to the living room to the kitchen. man wat a day! -.-" rot rot rot. WTH! want go out dunnoe who to ask. scared if ask ltr they say they not free. and the best thing to sasy is this, "I bankrupt liao". so? going out doesnt mean you need money. ouh well, i dont wanna waste my time talking bout this. i blog for the sake of blogging? lol. have to keep it alive anyway.

for a moment i had a flashback bout my life in sec 1 and that very moment i remembered bout that very someone. someone who i look upon as a caring and understanding person. someone who i thought i can share joy and happiness as a friend with. but what could have happen that we end up as so called enemy? i dunnoe whats the reason but i think we both are partly to be blame. am i being unfair to her? or is she being unfair to me? sigh... it's all because of that very day. the day where i was left alone thanks to her! sigh... seriously, sometimes i wish that i shouldn't have broke up with her (as a friend). it kinda breaks my heart the moment we got separated. she once said that its not easy to find a friend like me but she got it slipped away. everytime we ran into each other, it feels like there's a war between us. =( eversince we stop talking to each other, things didnt really go well for her. weird but when we were still friends, everything looks fine especially her studies. but what could have happen when she suddenly change? i was expecting her to move on as i have move on. years pass and im in a new school with new friends. news from my friend few weeks ago that she's no longer schooling. well she retained twice and was suppose to take her N'lvl this year. =( every now and then i wish that i could just turn back time but i know i cant. life have to move on, we cant keep broading over it.

well, i don't think she read my blog but who knows maybe her friends who know me could have read this. well, maybe you can help me pass this msg to her....
i know its too late to say this...

years have pass and we both have move on. you're with your life and im with mine now. all that had happened is already a history to me. there's time that i regret breaking up with you and misses you. but i know we'll never be back as friends. coz we have treated each other back to strangers. sometimes when we ran into each other, i really want to say hi to you but i couldnt bring myself. i could only say hi in my heart. ouh well, whats done cannot be undone. i really hope that you'll lead a good life and found someone better than me. you'll always be my friend eventhough there's still some hatred in me to you =( and i really hope that we could at least smile to each other whenever we ran into each other.
yours truly, Shikin.

FYI,tears roll down my cheeks...=(

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