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i got so irritated when there's no proper communication, nobody leading a group bla bla blah! its so frustrating when a group wants to organise an event but lacks of unity and expecting someone else to do the job. thats the reason why i had enough being as a leader.

being as a leader can be so frustrating. so what if you have committee members or assistant? they still come under you rite? theres more what the committee can do rather than sit and wait for orders. each and everyone of them have their own responsibilities.

its so irritating when no ones bother to take the first step to do something when they know that an event is suppose to be held. in addition, when ones being assign to do something, he/she should follow instruction. and even if ones volunteered to do something, they should be doing it and not last min say "im not doing it".

that will only make things worse and got delayed. if only i could be just a normal person and not holding any heavy or important responsibility. im not talking about my own responsibility, its about what you were given like being as a leader to whatever?! actually i had enough being as a leader but i noe i just can't get away from it. but im glad that theres actually others who are better than me. at least it gave me lesser responsibility.

ok i know some may not agree but its just my own opinion. having or being as a leader is good enough but i just feel that i had enough being as a leader and again, i can't get away from it. leadership is already in my life. what im talking rite now has got no link to anything. its just a piece of my mind. if have im sorry...

i wanted to promote this event but im lack of confidence. i've no confidence to this event yet because i scared the same things will happen again like the previous events. it'll be so embarrassing when your friends come and watch then the event didn't turn out good. so maybe i should delay promoting the event first till everything's perfect and the feeling of confidence.

pixies anyone? :D

the one and only brooksians clique.

us at Jess 18th

with Jess, the b'dae girl.

the girls...classmates for 2yrs!

and finally the one time favourite...J&D!

i love this pics.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Happy Birthday Daddy.
though you hardly see anything happening, i still wish you live till old and have a good and responsible and reasonable life. :P

ouh and happy birthday to everyone else who's celebrating their birthday today. =P

finally school's over! should i be happy or should i be sad? gonna miss some familiar faces in MI especially B9. how heartbroken can i be when the class gonna split out? i really hope B9 won't be seperated. we're too close that we can hardly accept if the class were to seperate. :(
ouh well, for those who's going to a different roads, i really wish all the best and don't give up! to those in the same road, lets do our best and work towards our goal! :)

till then happy holidays everyone! :)

i can be neutral but sometimes i cant.
it depends on my limits. ahaha! :D

Sunday, October 26, 2008

A PINK TIGER BEER.

ahahah! Jess b'dae party, WOW!
met up with J&D ystd and damn im so happy. from the way we dressed, its lyk we're going for our prom back den in 2007. its just that its at Safra rather than hotel. :D felt quite left out coz majority of the guest are Filipino and J&D are the only locals. but at least we locals get the opportunity to be invited. at least Jess remember us! :D felt so honoured on the other hand. food were served specially for us as we were considered HALAL. ahaha! okok, actually there were buffet but its not halal so they specially ordered halal food and served specially for us. :D ouh and the drinks? had fruit punch but den i called it PINK TIGER BEER. bcoz the drink is in a jar thats got a TIGER BEER logo.

we dance, we shout, we cheered. for a moment i felt like im in a club. the youth were happily dancing while the parents just sit and watch -.-"
wonder how much money they pump in for this event. sure it cost a bomb or maybe lesser. Safra cost lesser than hotel so should be ok.

thanks for the invitation Jess! :D

Labels: Jess 18th

Friday, October 24, 2008

happy yet sad.
how happy can i be? how sad can i be? i got promoted yes but my frens esp my best fren won't be with me. it just hearbreaking.

today yet another day with no lessons. its like a useless day today. got to know my promotional status and im proud of it but im very very disappointed with my grades. IM DOWN-GRADED! grr....WTH! so anyway, could feel the tension in everyone while waiting for the result slips. one by one, i see diff faces changes as they collect their slips. my heart sank when i see my frens couldn't make it.

todays prac is like useless. dunnoe why but i just find it useless. but somehow i feel that we just started so we need some time to be back to the real path. so yeah, we just nid some time, we're all potential players, so yeah. ouh and finally i've done my part as "loan-shark" ahahah! dealing with money is so fun. chasing ppl for money so shiok! AND BE GLAD TO HAVE ME AS YOUR TREASURER! coz i help them pay 1st if they don't have enough money =P i realise that im actually a responsible person but not a good player. really.

major conference ystd was like wow. i guess each of us really need some time to realise. i'll wait for Mr Dance to end his "promise". i just hope that everything goes well. i'l pray for you dear. *fingers crossed*

my heart sank when you can't make it. i really cried and hearbroken when i hug you just now. there won't be any fun and laughter that i could share with in sch. its been so wonderful as we everyday go sch 2gether and i just can't believe that you really can't make it. to tell you the truth, as i hug you, i started to cry and worst still, as i watch you go, i feel really really heartbreaken. im just sad tat you can't make it. but im so proud of you for being brave and strong. way the go girl. you're the one who didn't make it and im the one who's being sad in your place. ahaha. that's shows how true i am to my friends. :D take care aite dear? don't worry, im fine now. just some sadness.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

DRAMA?!
its been so drama yet again! ugh! how i hate it. it just make my heart sink.

i had totally a super free day in sch. ahaha. no lessons,lotsa breaks, movies and of course UNO. it seems like im back in not secondary but PRIMARY SCHOOL! still rmb what you did after your exams back in pri sch? haha. so much free period and all thats done was play games. totally a free time.

but then yet another worrying drama happened in sch today. quite scary yet worrying. i just hope the drama doesnt spread ard the whole sch. privacy ok? or should i say make it low-profile?

how dramatic can your life be? im so so heartbroken. to think that Mr Dance made a promise for one week and that if he fail, J&D will lose a member and also his dance? what kind of promise did he make? im so so worried. i just can't believe that we have been DRAMA-ing for the past few days month? ouh dear. is this some kind of a test that GOD made to us? i just don't want our friendship to end up bitter. i want it to be sweet and laughable. =(

to my dear Mr Mussy. i don't wanna lose you. you part of us now and thats it! no one, i repeat, NO ONE can ever replace you. you've been such a great friend who always make me laugh and crap. no one have ever crap as much as you did with me. please, pick up our calls or msg us yeah? at least we know how you are. im always there for you but you must make sure you don't hide okay? you are for who you are. i like the way you are.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

i had a trip down to Sentosa ytd with my dearies but sadly Herdy can't make it. met up with Rosey in the morning at KHATIB, off to meet Mus at Toa Payoh. how bad can i be by tricking Mus that we're alr at Braddell when we're actually at KHATIB? gosh...hahaha, sori Mus! poor him got trick by us and took the wrong train. so we ended up meeting at Dhoby.

sat down at Banquet at 10am. 45mins ltr, eat. ahahaha! shop haven open or ready yet, so we kinda snap photo and UNO! :) went down to Palawan and do our usual madness. apparently i was in no mood to swim so end up watching the rest swim.

back down to KHATIB mac to meet Herdy and Jess. again another madness with UNO. ahaha. word for the day: KHATIB!

today, got back all the papers. hmph! i still can't get that bloody pass for MOB. guess im not ready for MOB yet. hahah. not quite happy with all of the marks though i did pass. ouh well, gotta make sure i crack my brain really hard. ouh and 68 considered better than 48! how can that one person say its not good?! WTH! -.-"
kinda heartbreaking if the class were to split up. i don't wanna mix with other biz class especially with people whom i don't fancy. ugh!

CIP 2mr at PULAU TEKONG?! ahaha. how cool can it be? :)

Saturday, October 18, 2008

tempting isn't it? :)

i find it rather irritating when bloggers start to be TOO expressive in not a good way. hmm, i dont wanna use the word but it got nothing to do with something thats happy or whatsoever. you wont understand what im trying to say cause i myself donnoe how to put it. ahahah! :P
in fact its none of my business. every blogger have their own way to blog. so yeah. no offence. its just how i feel. different people blog differently. unless theres idiots who don't have the sense of originality.

promos result is just ard the corner. in fact its just a few days away. gosh, im so so scared. a possibility of 10 out of 29 will be promoted in B9. how cool is that? more than 50% of B9 will either retain or advance. gosh! is promos really that hard that alot of people cant really get promoted? im sure there'll be drama on tues and of course weds. haha. you'll never know what im referring to except for some. :P if i ever get retain, i'll not retain. i rather withdraw and start finding my own money.

ahh...i see Syidah and Suhailah.

capturing those moments.
i realise that he has change the way he look. from spiky to flat. hmm... its like he turn over a new leaf. ahaha. aybe im wrong but idk, its just the way i feel.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

guess what?! i had glass-painting today. ahaha....
ok actually it was post-exam activity today. sadly there's only bowling and glass painting. only 300 students got selected for the painting from the template that was given to the Yr 1 earlier. surprisingly, my design got chosen! wow. :D
but then didn't get to go bowling, oni those not selected went. hmph!
its quite fun actually. lining and painting the glass is something that you hardly do. TO ME lar ok? hehe, not sure bout the rest. haha, again i've learnt something new. yeah! :P

its been a drama these few days. i feel like a knife forcing itself to pierce through my heart. how hurt can it be seeing your besties going through so much stuff. to think that they went through more than you? :(
it just pains me. how time flies and all of us like trying to face up to the world and fight for whats right and whats wrong. how fast we grow. its like you just had fun a few hours ago and now you're facing a drama scene.

deep down in my heart, J&D is the main concern for me. they're the only one that completes me. i'll always be there for J&D. :)

When you're close to tears remember, Some day it'll all be over

Monday, October 13, 2008

Did i say that i LOVE starbuck's coffee? ouh well, now you know. coffee is like a drug to me. dunnoe why but i just cant help myself from staying AWAKE very long after savouring the coffee. :)

some pixies from my date with J&D.

ouh yes. the ladies in skirt. i bet its your first time seeing me in skirt outside -.-" ahahaha!

walking down the memory lane.

cheerios. back to sch mode now coz its time to go back sch tmr. :D

ouh and a change of song. i just find it nice. "I wish I knew how it would feel to be free" ;)

Labels: JnD date

Saturday, October 11, 2008

what's more can i ask for a STARBUCK date with lovelies... ;D

i had loads of fun with the J&D ystd. they REALLY make my day. from the laughter to the UNO to the sore feet. how much more can i ask for? had a flashback of J&D while eating lunch ystd. so much things happened and i have to admit, J&D had went through alot before we finally settle down together as one :D

so, met up for the celebration of Rosies B'dae and im guilty for forgetting to bring her b'dae pressie. how could me. tsk! playing UNO is darn fun especially with the J&D. don't just play the boring UNO game, try think of something more than just UNO. so much fun we had but sadly, one of us got CURFEW at 6PM! so we send Rose off and the rest of us headed for shopshopshop. Dy really shop till mine & Mussies feet got tired. HAH! next time, i shall wear proper shoes. hmph!

I really love dating with J&D. they just bright up my day :D

we LOVE starbucking.

J&D will be there for each other no matter what. I'm always there and i really wish J&D well. it just pain me whenever yall encounter a problem. :(
from the bottom of my heart, please do take care of urself,aite?
J&D is my life...

Labels: JnD date

Thursday, October 09, 2008

ahh...those moments. once stuck, never unstuck. :D

HAPPY 17th ROSERIA NATHAN CASSANDRA.

hah! i love playing around with your name. =P

Monday, October 06, 2008

free alas...

finally the battle is over! but that doesn't mean its over forever. the outcome is yet to come O.O
hope all the hardwork really paid off.
raising WHITE FLAG for Geog and Accounts. the rest...cross-fingers.

mummy say there's a possibility of ME getting high blood pressure. how? what if its really true? coz i've been getting neck pain and my head. ugh....well that's what mummy said, not me. pray me safe. :) exams are over, so its ok if im landed in TTSH or whichever hopital. Aahaha! CRAP.

Friday, October 03, 2008

how irritating can it be when you have a few couzins who are younger than you AND are non-s'porean. damn i hate it especially when they start to be ignorant and noisy! can't say the young, even the old can be KPO and ignorant. sigh, relatives.... the only people that i don't often meet and hate to meet. :)

so damn the papers that i've taken so far do-able except for GEOG! OMG! O.O
i went blank the moment i read ALL the qns. almost feel like giving up but i can't. i have to continue no matter what. MOB can say watever you want but i know i'll pass at least 55% -.-" heh! MATH?! gosh, the only subject that im strong at. surprisingly....im unable to complete the anwers from qns 9 onwards. T.T ouh well, if im unable to get promoted which i BELIEVE it wont happen, i'll be somewhere else. :)

im surprise that i actually have a great-great-grandpa who is RICH & LOVE to do GOOD DEEDS! wow! too bad he left the world alr :)

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Maaf Zahir Dan Batin!

cum

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!

to all my muslim friends: if i've ever done some wrongdoing or hurt your feeling in any way, im so so sorry. bulan yang mulia ini, amponkanlah aku. hehe :D

alrights. I've a "super great" celebration today. how i spend my Hari Raya? simple.
I SPEND THE WHOLE DAY AT HOME....
1) LIKE A NERD! CRACKING MY BRAIN OUT FOR PROMOS!
2) WAITING FOR GUEST TO COME AND ENTERTAINED THEM!
3) feelin very heartbroken.

well, this year Raya is not as happening like last time. for all my life, i've never had a most memorable and joyful Raya. all i know is everytime Raya came, the feeling is not there. seeing my parents makes the feeling even worse. seeing other family celebrate together happily makes me so ugh... :(
mom's not in a stable condition to go out so she stay at home. her injuries from the accident haven fully recovered and its hard for her to walk and stand long. so since im in no mood for Raya, stayed behind to accompany mom. even sis doesnt want go out. left Dad and he stills carry on for Raya even without us. even if i go with him, USELESS! he wont even bother to treat us like a family. im like a stranger when with him. nothing to talk about, more or less talk when necessary. but i kinda feel sad seeing him go alone. its like Raya suppose to be a joyful celebration but he kinda alone. though i hate him so much, i still feels for him. he's my father, what do u expect?!

so Raya is in the mids of exams and i dont wanna slack just bcoz its Raya. there's ONE MONTH to celebrate and promos only few days. so Promos 1st, den celebrate after that. :)
im in study mode.

PS: i dont like going out on first day of Raya to people houses especially on father's side. SO KECOH & IRRITATING!

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