thatGIRL

to all my muslim friends: if i've ever done some wrongdoing or hurt your feeling in any way, im so so sorry. bulan yang mulia ini, amponkanlah aku. hehe :D

alrights. I've a "super great" celebration today. how i spend my Hari Raya? simple.
I SPEND THE WHOLE DAY AT HOME....
1) LIKE A NERD! CRACKING MY BRAIN OUT FOR PROMOS!
2) WAITING FOR GUEST TO COME AND ENTERTAINED THEM!
3) feelin very heartbroken.

well, this year Raya is not as happening like last time. for all my life, i've never had a most memorable and joyful Raya. all i know is everytime Raya came, the feeling is not there. seeing my parents makes the feeling even worse. seeing other family celebrate together happily makes me so ugh... :(
mom's not in a stable condition to go out so she stay at home. her injuries from the accident haven fully recovered and its hard for her to walk and stand long. so since im in no mood for Raya, stayed behind to accompany mom. even sis doesnt want go out. left Dad and he stills carry on for Raya even without us. even if i go with him, USELESS! he wont even bother to treat us like a family. im like a stranger when with him. nothing to talk about, more or less talk when necessary. but i kinda feel sad seeing him go alone. its like Raya suppose to be a joyful celebration but he kinda alone. though i hate him so much, i still feels for him. he's my father, what do u expect?!

so Raya is in the mids of exams and i dont wanna slack just bcoz its Raya. there's ONE MONTH to celebrate and promos only few days. so Promos 1st, den celebrate after that. :)
im in study mode.

PS: i dont like going out on first day of Raya to people houses especially on father's side. SO KECOH & IRRITATING!

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