i was on the computer trying to switch it off when suddenly something push/pull me all the way back. something just went through my spine and blood gush out none stop. i was in freaking pain. i was brought to the hospital and the doctor said i need to make two choices. one, the doctor need to "cut" my spine for it got affected badly. two, i have to undergo some stupid shit. apparently, i will be paralyze for the rest of my life no matter what.

it was just a dream. hell no way im gonna let myself in that situation unless got some stupid "war" going on. phew...

ouh well, for the past few days i've been having stupid dreams. but why? in this dream, at least one of us get hurts. its so heartbreaking. and make me worry for the future. -_-

i hope nothing will happen.

currently i like part of my life at home. after 4pm i can have the whole house to myself. which means nobody is at home except me. soo i would just go crazy and do whatever i want as long as im happy. ahhaha!