this year charity concert theme is colours of life. a charity concert for a hospital which believed to have a deficit of abt 2million? whoah! im glad im able to help in the charity concert. i do hope people would turn up for the concert. even if they dont like watching, they could at least donate some. :)

in time to come, sis will be walking down the red carpet holding the arm of her true love. yes, sis is now preparing for her wedding in the next coming 2 years. haha! better prepare in advance than last minute. :) so yeah, many queries occurred me the moment she told me she's preparing for her wedding. will she leave me alone in this house and stay with her future husband in his house? suddenly it feels everything happens so damn fast.

at first, late mother left us. now, sis gonna get married. den what about me? do i still have to carry on and live independently. am i gonna carry all the burden all by myself? its hard. even if my friends say, "You're not alone. we're are here for you. be strong okay? cheer up." that's it? is that all they can do to help?

i mean yeah, i know they cant do much to help me. its because everything will have to go down to one person and thats me. but i really do not wish to get any of my friends involve coz i know, they themselves have their own problems. its easy for them to give suggestion but its hard to apply it.

they want me to go back school. yes i really wanna go back school. but you have to think back, its not gonna be easy for me to go back now. its the money issues. and one more thing, i really do not like to have a discussion abt this especially when i've already said, "i'll have to see first. its not gonna be easy." and stop forcing or keep reminding me about this. i dont like.

i just wanna enjoy life and forget everything for a moment. this year happening is too much for me to take in. i need to rest. please.... :(