i wasted 2hours waiting for the queue no. 8100 to appear today. it was a freaking HOT day and there were soooo many people at ICA collecting their passport. daddy uh, wants to go in the afternoon. bad timing. bad.....

soon when we reached yishun later on, bought some kitchen stuff den went to buy food. i do not know whats wrong with me but i was impatience. i went to daddy asking him to go pay for it and guess what he said? "Wait lah. The other food from this stall haven finish cooking. don't talk to me like that eh. very rude. can talk properly right." obviously he talked in his fatherly tone.

its was already my way of talking like that and he did not accept it. after all these years, didnt he realize my characteristic? you have to be an obedient girl, polite and super respectful when talking to him. no friend-friend talking kind like how i always talked to mummy.

so i simply asked him for the car key and took my stuff and leave him behind while waiting for the stupid satay to cook. i cried on the way back. i cried really bad till i reflected of the past where i always depend on mummy.

now that she's gone, i got no one to really depend on. there were no more sense of belonging in this house.

i'm left with just myself and my friends.

but mostly i need to be independent but im tired of doing it alone. i need a shoulder to lean on and i need someone to share the burden with.

this life just suck big time. :(