Goodbye 2009.

2009 had been nothing but bittersweet. but i'll call it rather sorrowful. 2009 is a year that i'll never forget. the year where i lost a very important person in my life and that is my mother. never did i expected this would come. i thought she would have a long life but i was wrong. Allah love her more than anyone else and so she had to leave us for a better place.

my friends kept telling me to move on but i cant seem to pull through fully yet. im still in disbelieve of what had happened. i was indeed rude to her weeks before she was admitted to the hospital. never it occurred in my mind that she was suffering badly. i was too selfish to myself and was too focus in school that i neglected her health risk. i have myself to blame bcoz all i think was about MISB and the SYF.

MISB is already giving me pressure for the SYF. because of that i was rude to mother. i thought i was able to make up for it after SYF but i was wrong. i was too late.

i could still remember my last moment with mother. the day before she left, she had high fever. she was too weak to talk to us but she was able to look and stare at us. me, sis and daddy was all by her side and all she could do was to stare at us. i fed her 3 spoonful of food and 2 bottles of tonic water. that was the only thing i last did for her.

never it occurred to me that it was my last time with mother. as we all left, i bid my final farewell to her. at that point of time, i felt something was not right. who would have thought, the next morning she left us all. we were all in disbelief but we cant do anything as she had left us to a better place.

today Miss Shikin travelled mainly towards the WEST SIDE. hmmm west side story? nahh.... its just some traveling that Miss Shikin had with Miss Ain.

From Bukit Panjang to Yishun to Woodlands to Bukit Batok to Chua Chu Kang.

HAHA!

and so our journey will always be from one end to another end and back to the same end.

this coming thurs, i'll be nowhere but at woodlands! countdown with Rose and the others at her church. excited? YES! HAHAH! Al-Ameen better have alot of varieties! :)

i so dont like waiting for results to be release in your face. HAHA! this was indeed from experience from the past few SYF. so irritating! your hopes were high and when the results were announced, tears start to roll down your cheeks. but not for Singapore Idol. i was laughing like mad when the results were announced.

so does that mean now singapore idol become IDOLA SINGAPURA? all 3 idols are malay, so? heck care with the stupid "keep the tradition of anak melayu" lah! come on lah, its the person that represents our country NOT for fun. haiyo.... some people just dont know how to vote.

ok enough about this idols. both are winners and both have their own strong and weakness right? LOL

there is a new cafe at far east. its called Tom & Toms Cafe. its a KOREAN cafe. WOW! its the same like any other ordinary cafe but the only diff is it originates from Korea and their drink sizes range only from Tall and Grande. no venti. sad....HAHAH! :)

3days left....

christmas pass and today marks the 5th year anniversary since the last tsunami strikes and killed many innocents lives. may the soul rest in peace. amin.

in time to come, i hope everything will be back to normal.

Yesterday was a whole day of conquering around zoo. Yes! finally i got my feet back into zoo and visit all the long time no see animals. HAHAHA! the last time i went there was sec 1 and its only the butterfly section. LOL!

in a week time, 2009 will be a history. 2010 will be a new year and a new life for me.

had band camp for 2days. well actually it was 3days, sunday to tues but i came on monday onwards. first day was fine, but i didnt get involve much. i just wanted to see how everything goes. im sure theres some disappointment but im sure they did had fun. the sad thing is, i had a very deep cut on my left index finger. it may be a finger but its very painful.

the alumni were making supper for the band yesterday and i decided to help out. i was too careless as to get myself cut from the sharp edge of the campbell soup can. whoops. i was opening the lid without realising that i press my finger hard on the sharp edge. well prolly bcoz the lid wasnt open properly with the equipment thats why its diff to take the lid off.

so there goes my finger. making me hard to type on the lappy and to do anything with my left hand properly. tsk! the cut is too deep and its feeling numb right now. haiyo....ouh well, by 2mr it should be alright uhh.

i heard that northbrooks will be celebrating their 10th Anniversary next year. well, i don't know if i'll be able to make it for i know i'll be packed with stuff next year.

anyway, when i reach home today, there was an awful smell. in which it was a burned smell. sis told me that the house almost got burned. it all thanks to Daddy carelessness. this morning Daddy boiled chicken for my cats den he left it unattended and left the house to buy breakfast (in which he will take his own time to buy). sis was still sleeping when he left. so what happen next? the water got dried up and turn the inside of the pot BLACK! even the chicken got burned. sis say there were nearly fire. thank god that sis woke up on time to quickly turn off the fire. this is not the first time that had happen. it happens so many times. can you imagine what will happen if me and sis not at home and Daddy left the fire unattended? GOSH!

2mr is wednesday and i am going to the ZOO with my frens! yes you heard that right. HAHAH! i'll go to zoo and visit the MONKEH! :)

Caramel Latte.

we all go crazy as usual. all those screaming, laughing, jumping and smiling sure take my mind off from all those heart-breaking problems. they sure made my day. it's my pleasure to give them a treat since they have been there for me in MI. im so gonna miss all the MONKEH moments. ouh well, theres always 8digits to press to get through them. :)

Today, i accompanied Musfit to redeem his MacBook.WAHLAO! purposely making me jealous. ouh well, as we were walking as Giant, he DROP THE CASE! HAHAH! TAKE THAT MUSSY!

an awesome charity concert. sadly, everything went on fast and in a click, the day just ended like that. i still cant believe its over. i wish it never ends. i haven had enough fun.

the concert start out smoothly. thank God that everything went on as planned. all our hardwork and sacrifices finally paid off. im so happy.

everything happened in a flash. it felt so different from the last year end concert i had. at least the last year end concert we get to stay over in school but this year we cant. how i really wish this were to happen again. then there will be another round of crazy momentum and nonsensical jokes.

ouh well, whats done is done. i cant turn back the time and replay everything again.

im so proud to have been in MISB and i will still be in touch with them. they are the bestest band i ever had.

to all who came yesterday, thanks for your support and the flowers and the goodies! :)

early in the morning at 6.30am, my alarm rang but i reset the timing again. at 7.45am it rang again. i switched it off and when back to sleep. finally, at 8.30am i woke up by myself.

went to pay a visit to the cemetery. i can't remember when was the last time i visited but it seems that the grass grew fast and taller. right after visiting, daddy send me to thomson rd.

my batt went flat thanks to Ain for not picking it up. went to Far East Floral to pick flowers. the place where they kept the flowers were freaking cold! like a fridge! but it was so fun! going around the whole "fridge" picking up flowers.

Ain's family was there so it seems that me and Adeline was like having a shopping day with Ain's family. HAHAH! we went Mustafa Shopping Centre (in which i can get lost) and IMM. at IMM, we start our shopping. we bought chocolates and my perfume. my perfume finish already so im in need of a replacement. :)

thanks for the ride to Ain's daddy. haha! i cant imagine if our fathers meet each other. confirm they sit at coffee shop drinking just coffee and talk talk talk talk non stop. -_-"

2mr is the concert and i do hope everything will go smoothly. in addition to that, 2mr will be the last day that i will spend as much as possible time with all my dearest. after that, i do not know when will i get to spend time again with them in band.

well, whatever it is, they are the best bandits to get wild with especially Ain, the best person to disturb. HAHA! :)

who would have thought that my anger was vent at the pitiful bunch of chairs in the school hall. yes, today i was damn pissed for God knows what reason. like seriously. lunch was late and i was angry. so did my other two buddies.

i was really pissed that i decided to rearrange the chairs in the hall. to my anger, the chairs went, WHAM! BAM! TAM! so the hall was filled by my anger to the chairs O_O

then when i finally cool down, i asked myself about my anger. i realised i didn't really know whats the reason behind my anger. sometimes i got carried away about my anger due to being used to be the Vice-president of MISB. now that i've left the school, im in no position to scold the band or whatsoever. sometimes it does get to my nerves of scolding them like hell but i control myself.

3 mores days till the concert. i have the feeling that some things will go bad. like really. :(

this whole week i've been and still be busy with band. concert is just a few days away. i am tired and i just feel like sleeping and never wake up.

my friday was spent fully with The Razzi. morning as usual we had band practice, which is boring. but soon when clock strikes 2pm, we were all excited. there were only 5 of us and J&D M was one of them.

we went for 2 hours of hilarious ice-skating and it was damn fun. it was indeed my first time there and im getting the hang of it. im still scared to skate tho. HAHA! Musfit is such and ditcher! he teach me for a moment and another moment he went missing. his 2/3 rounds is my 1 lousy round. AHAHAH!

overall it was fun and hilarious. out of 5 of us, 3 of them fell. the Evil twins is as usual, the lucky ones! HAHAHA! we end off our day at CBTL with dare/dare and also chasing after bus 16! :)

after so much hilarious moments yesterday, today den i felt tired. so i was supposed to meet HuiMin and Mus today but canceled. was too tired and sleepy. in addition, it's raining now and it makes me wanna sleep! HAHA!

thats what happened when J&D H got shock out of the blues.....

today, J&D R and M came over to cook pasta for our home-made lunch. :)

we managed to surprise J&D H will our ouh so hillarious but cute card! and i tricked her about the lunch. so much for my aunties. AHAHAH!

we sat down peacefully at the stadium and had our lunch there. after that we had a mini tour ard the "fish tank" classroom. HAHAH! soo cute... soon we settled down to a corner and we did our usual randomness. this times its "truth/dare" and "dare/dare". J&D R is damn lucky today. HAHA!

today, Starbucks had their christmas open house. in which everything will be in the house (drinks only, small size). probably its their annual open house i think. they had one last year too. so anyway, J&D R, K and M was at starbucks when suddenly it struck us about the closed pathway. we managed to figure it out bcoz of the signboard. it was indeed a long queue. the three of us were like, "all this people are sooo kiasu. its not even 5pm and they are already standing by. HAHAHA!" OMG! typical singaporean. lols

2mr The Razzi will be going for ice-skating. OMG! i cant wait! :)